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I'm feeling so lonely right now, yet I feel great being alone sometimes. I see stuff like go outside your comfort zone and whatnot, but I'm too scared to do it. I'm afraid of being judged. I'm afraid of the possible laughter that will be directed towards me. I've imagined periods of my future that result in my death, without anyone around. I know it's unnecessary to have friends during my current time, since it's all going to be hitting the books, getting good grades, all that shit. And I know I'm "wasting my youth" by doing just that. But I've nothing I can use to connect with others. I've got some but that conversation didn't even last 20 seconds. Everyone dies alone, yes, but is it wrong to want a friend who will feel like I matter in their life? Is hypocritical of me too since I don't feel any emotional attachment to them. Anyways, sorry for ranting here, nobodies