KneesOnTheGround

Born to be nonchalant, forced to be chalant

i lost ten pounds in the past month because im lowkey not eating rn but hey at least ill look good for senior photos next week
          gotta look your best if youre homeschooled fr fr

they ripped off my wings in hopes that they could fly

Because I'm free falling into my own mind,
          Lost in the hallways of my memory;
          Wondering, where did everything go wrong?
          
          Which one of my steps wasn't right,
          And took me left instead?
          How did I get to the point where everything hurts, 
          And I feel like the easy way out is the only one?
          
          When did all of my friends start sharing their trauma;
          When did she start cutting?
          When did someone force him for pleasure?
          When did someone bully her?
          When did his parents shun him?
          
          When did I stop eating to make myself feel better?
          When did I cover up my mirror?
          When did the scratches on my arms stop being white?
          When did everything go wrong?
          
          And I can only answer one way:
          I don't know.