@HauntingAdmirer ohhhh you use both??? thats good bc i love the download function of ao3 dkdlspls but ill probs keep commenting on details on either site, on ao3 by quoting and stuff. im so glad to hear youve been well! i missed you too honestly i kept remembering but heavily lacked motivation to go on my phone,, my school stuff is going good i really improved in many subjects but im currently going through a crisis of "what to study" and "the system sucks" and stuff, i feel like it will all be for nothing if i dont end up being happy with what ive studied later on im so scared of being 40 and not proud of what ive achieved. not that achievement is money to me, its more about doing what i like and becoming really good at it, like a proper degree or smt. your fic kinda also made me think about it because ive been wanting to study psychology since forever but where i live there are restrictions on that subject and unless i do private school/leave the country i wont be able to study psychology bc the necessary grade is close to perfect. i also am interested in 50 other things tho so im having a really hard time figuring out what to do and coming to terms with the fact that i might not be able to do certain subjects because of my A levels grade, its really frustrating and very unfun but i trust everything will work out someday and ill find my way to go but i havent found it yet and just that sucks kdllslsks
do you mind me asking where you are in life currently? what are you doing, how is it going? do you have doubts or regrets? or are you fully glad?