Hawaiiansiren

Idk about this whole being a lesbian........
          	I know I like girls but it's very isolating to be honest.. there aren't many queer girls around me or at school, many of them are taken or very unavailable to me..I don't have the best luck online either with girls, for once I thought my parents were actually starting to understand my feelings but they still feel like I could be straight and it's so annoying and invalidating...I feel rejected and isolated from everyone and everything, I think I'm slowly giving up on girls although I still like them. I have no chance of getting a girlfriend. Maybe I should suppress my sexuality
          	
          	Everyone around me has a bf some girls have gfs but many have bfs (my sister for one

taylovesyou101

Hey are you okay its been a minute since you uploaded a new episode so i decided to reach out to you 

taylovesyou101

@Hawaiiansiren Aww i didnt see your name
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Aaerikay

 Have you ever thought about talking to a therapist?? It’s great to get your feelings out and even feel heard and have that ‘friendly’ support but with therapy their able to reel those feelings in and get to the root of the problem. I hope you’re doing well, keep your head up— it’s all gonna get better for you. 

Hawaiiansiren

Idk about this whole being a lesbian........
          I know I like girls but it's very isolating to be honest.. there aren't many queer girls around me or at school, many of them are taken or very unavailable to me..I don't have the best luck online either with girls, for once I thought my parents were actually starting to understand my feelings but they still feel like I could be straight and it's so annoying and invalidating...I feel rejected and isolated from everyone and everything, I think I'm slowly giving up on girls although I still like them. I have no chance of getting a girlfriend. Maybe I should suppress my sexuality
          
          Everyone around me has a bf some girls have gfs but many have bfs (my sister for one

Hawaiiansiren

Did I do something wrong?
          
          I broke up with her today and....it went..somewhat how I expected...during our relationship she had put me on a pedestal and I told her how it wasn't healthy, she depended on me alot for love, attention, and even validation she said that I gave her a purpose in life and I told her not to think like that....we even told each other we could be friends if we did break up...and she agreed. She guilted once when we almost broke up last time. She told me she understood and she respected whatever I did. Now today I finally did it and she..got angry. When she said she would want to be friends if we broke up....she's has mental struggles and a dysfunctional family life but so do I....i just felt bad for her bc I don't want her to spiral bc of me. She blocked me on Instagram. I feel like she used me as her validation high horse to feed her the attention and love she wants and she's not giving to herself. Like she's insecure
          
          From......her history and what she's told me....a long time ago dating back to when we first started dating.....she admitted to faking things to gain Sympathy from others....she did it to alot of her past partners

fruitytutti17

Hey boo hru?

Hawaiiansiren

@Kaiyana155 enough about me, what's been up with you
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Hawaiiansiren

@Kaiyana155 awe :) that's so sweet. I've been bust with school and that's why 
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Hawaiiansiren

Hello to anyone who cares, I have just discovered my sister’s Wattpad account and though it had only been a day it still feels surreal, I’m surprised my parents even gave me permission to have access to her phone. As her younger sister I’m announcing something that I never expected to announce. My sister committed suicide yesterday, I won’t go into details but I will say we are grieving heavily and I’m not very sure if anyone cares but we really could use some condolences for this painful loss.

Sickshittt_

@donutsandfrenchfries I am really sorry, </3 keep your head up...
            keep fighting on. And I am sorry you have to go through this, sending lot's of love and prayers~
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Hawaiiansiren

@ladybugandcatnoir12 thank you for your condolences 
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Hawaiiansiren

I’ve been molested 3 times, I’ve been bullied for 2 years in middle school, my parents don’t accept me, what do I have to live for?

Sickshittt_

@donutsandfrenchfries Sorry for the late reply.. but that's weird, will you ever make another account??
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Hawaiiansiren

@_-Moneynotfound-_ thank you, my account has been mysteriously deactivated and I’m not sure why but thank you very much 
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Sickshittt_

@donutsandfrenchfries  I am really sorry you have to go through those things, and I am always here to talk... Idk where your Pinterest account went but I hope we can talk again someday <3 I truly wish you the best in life, your a really cool person and I hope you understand that there are lot's of people who like you and your creations. I am one of those people <33
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