Just want to write this to express my feelings.
I've been in kind of situation that I can't think clearly, whereas my mind's clouded.
I have a group of friends that's been over 3 years more. I feel kind of proud at the time 'cause is my first time making online friends and meeting them. Not all of them are online friends, most of them I met in highschool.
This is where the most of the feelings develops. Most of the time, they always talked about a topic that I don't know and understand. And even If I understand the topics beforehand just to talk to them, I have very different views about it and it makes me more uncomfortable. Even worse is, everytime I tried to talk something else, they don't want to make another branch of topic from mine. They just keep continue in the heat of moment and just ignores my own message.
It got me sad honestly. And it upsets me that I got sad just over this problem.
Recently, I just reduce my conversation with them. As I knew if I tried to open conversation, they just gonna ignore me. With that happening, I want to fix myself at the time. So I started exercising a few and explore things that keep my mind in bay, away from them.
Don't get me wrong with this, I'm not hating on them or anything else negative to them. They're absolutely kind and can be assertive when they had to. It's just that, I'm just not fits going around in that environment.
Anyways, thanks for reading this until this point. I'll be trying to keep up at writing, as I trying to keep up with music and fitness. Hope you all have a good day. Cheers.