Oh my god,
So most of my family is not homophobic, but then there is this one family that's coming over for our Christmas party tomorrow and they are homophobic. Well, that's basically what my mom told me when I asked her. So.. I might go crazy tomorrow, and ehh, I want to come out just to come out and get it over with. But.. I honestly don't know how that'll go. :/
I hate this. Nobody in my life has really been homophobic, but that family is something else, honestly, they criticize every little thing. Some of the other families in my family does the same thing. And then I asked my mom how to come out without coming out to them, and she goes, "You don't need to do anything." What?? The thing is, I want to come out. But I don't know how. My mom isn't experienced in this stuff so.. Aughhh, I actually might explode at any second now. And my therapist isn't here to help me this time since she's not there. :/
Whatever, I'll just cringe everytime they ask if I "have a crush on a boy" or "have a boyfriend." Or.. just tell them I'm into girls, but I don't know what family drama that would cause-
*screaming internally*
I don't know why I'm telling you guys this, I think I just need to get it off my chest, you know? Thanks for listening if you made it until here <3
I'll be offline now, and be back in the morning! I love you guys!!
