Okay. I'm gonna be honest and talk about a lot of stuff. This is really personal so uh yeah. This is kinda a vent I guess .
Back when I was on Wattpad a lot more, I had a bit of family issues. Like I didn't know who to trust in my family. My aunt told me lies about my dad, my dad talked to me about my aunt, my aunt manipulated me into believing my dad was abusive to her when they were kids. She manipulated me with money. I had a choice with whether I could 'take a break' from my parents and sibilings for a week by staying over at my grandma's house where my aunt lived. I stayed with my aunt. Even when my dad pleaded with me to come home, and that I'd have the truth a year later, maybe a couple of months, that the truth would come soon and that I'd just have to wait. I didn't believe him. Worst decision I've ever made. I lost my dad's trust, my mom's trust, all by believing lies and by being manipulated like that. Yes I've been with my parents and family now, I hope they trust me but I trust them with all my heart. The truth did come. A couple of weeks ago, most likely less. I don't know. But yeah. I am confused all over again, but now I feel like I can trust my parents again. But I just have that small feeling wondering 'What if they are lying.? What if I'm being lied to all over again?' so throughout this entire time I've just been confused. Although I feel like i can trust my parents, I sometimes don't know. But something is seriously about to go down, I feel it. Maybe in a month, maybe less, maybe more, I don't know. But I'll know whether my dad was 'abusive' like my aunt said he was. But now I genuinely WISH with all my soul, all my heart, that my dad wasn't like that, because then that would mean he lied to me, and he doesn't want to lie to anyone. At least that's what he says. I'm in a weird situation. But I just hope that my dad didn't lie.
