Hazza_Beeaarrr

2,295 reads on Torn. If I get 5 more, it'll say '2.3k' rather than '2.2k'. So help get it there?

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@Hazza_Beeaarrr PART 2
          
           YOU are the one that deserves a life on this planet and I want you to get that life. So please, don't ever think about giving up. If you ever need someone to talk to, don't hesitate one bit to inbox me because ill always be here to talk you. 
          
          Love Your fellow Wattpader and friend,
          
          Bryn (aka iluvenature)
          
          P.S. I might have run over in letters so my message will probably be cut in two.

iluvenature

@Hazza_Beeaarrr @Hazza_Beeaarrr Ali, I know to you I am just a follower on Wattpad.i also know I don't know what you physically look like but I want to tell you some things. I don't want you or anyone to ever think they have no choice in this world but to kill themselves because it's not true. There are always more people that care about you than you think. Like the random guy in let's say your math class who is super shy but actually has a major crush on you and just can't tell you. Or secretly your best guy friend might love you for who you are and will want you to keep eating and not give up on happiness in this world. Find ways to become hungry again. Experiment with new foods maybe. Find a new hobby like cooking and dig up some tasty recipes online and try them out. :) Or maybe show your emotions through art or photography or even a sport. Or you can just write your emotions out in stories here on Wattpad. I want you to know that even though I don't personally know you along with other people that follow you, that I am a friend to you and want your safe being and happiness. The loss of you in our world would not only be a tragedy to Wattpad but a tragedy to your family, your school, your friends, and me. Think about all the people that need YOU to keep living. Without you to keep them holding on they will let go. You won't give up on them will you? I think it's beyond amazing that you didn't give up and like you said, are eating again and are on the path to happiness and contentness. And it's not a miracle. It's not a miracle because YOU pulled it off. YOU were the one that overcome the hard feelings burrowed in your head and heart. YOU are the one God wants in this world still along with your friend @harrysgold and any other people you know that are depressed. Which after I type this, I'm going to talk to @harrysgold like you suggested.

Hazza_Beeaarrr

Guys, I can't thank you enough. Thank you, @BookyBear and @Butterflies526. I don't even know you guys and you still cared. You have no idea how much that means to me. Thank you.❤ I'm better. I at lunch yesterday, I ate 2 servings at dinner yesterday as well. I had brunch today. I haven't cut in about 3 days. I feel me again. I'm not fat. If anything, I'm almost UNDERweight. I feel great. I'm happy again. My best friend who tried to commit suicide( @harrysgold ), she's ok. She's alive again. She's home. I'm so happy for her. I want to thank her, so much. She's the major reason I'm ok. Thank you.❤ And guys, @harrysgold is thinking about deleting her account or something. Go rape her stories and her message board. Go attack her with love and reasons why she should stay. It would mean the world to me and her.❤ Thank you guys, so much. I just think you guys should know that. I'm going to try to finish the next chapter of Torn or WWBJW and upload them soon, but we'll see. Have a wonderful day, my lovelies.❤ 
          Your recovering fellow Wattpadder,
          Ali❤

Hazza_Beeaarrr

@BookyBear thank you... You're so sweet... It's just that my best friend killed himself a little over a month ago, my other best friend tried to kill herself a couple days ago, and my brother's gf told me she was going to. That pain is unbearable. Everyone I know says I'm no where near fat. They say I'm a stick. And they may see that, but I don't. So I've been starving myself. I've eaten a total of 4 and a half things in 4 and a half days. I'm shaky. I'm getting dizzy really easily. I'm scared. I've cut myself. My brother hates me, he wants to beat the shit out of me. Because I made his gf want to kill herself. All three of those were/would have been my fault. I just don't know what to do or feel anymore. I'm not hungry, I don't want to eat. But people are saying I need to. I can't. I don't want to. It's just so hard right now... u.u

Hazza_Beeaarrr

I'm sorry if I've failed you guys... I don't know how much longer I can be here... I've been...starving...myself. I'm fat. I feel fat. I need to lose weight. I'm sorry... Please don't hate me... I'm thinking about giving my stories away just in case... I'll give you an update tomorrow... Goodbye for now... (Posted on September 1st, 2013. I'll post again on September 2nd... Bye... :3 )