I am a stupid kid with feelings for the same gender. I have FAP, a disease that causes colon cancer, and I haven't spoken to nor seen my dad ever since my fifth birthday.  My best friend that I met in sixth grade, the second day of school, is the one that stole my heart. I am worried sick about them.

Crying yourself to sleep. I am no stranger to that.

Being ignored. I'm fine by that, and plus, I like being alone.

Someone falls out of love with you. I feel like that towards my dad.

Discovering that the one you love loves someone else. You just had to go there, didn't you?

To my love, you make my heart ache. Only you make a knot inside of me thinking that you're gone. Only you can claim my heart as yours. My only wish is to tell you how your eyes and how the sound of your voice gives me butterflies. How your smile makes my heart skip a beat and how every time I'm with you, I feel complete.

Often do I feel like that I'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen.

My dreams of ever being the one you wanted me to be, the ones where I was perfect, ended just before they started.