Heaven_Olarte

The fck... I reread one of my poetry collections and just had this thought... "What was I on when I reworked this?" 
          
          Crazy.
          
          You know how they portray frustrated painters and artists tearing apart their work?? I'm mentally doing that right now. 
          
          Anyways, that'd be too harsh. I'll polish them a bit when I'm free and able and feeling creative, I guess.

It hasn't been a full year since my temporary leave from Wattpad, but I feel like my perspective has changed. It's for the better. It works better for immersion. I can drown in my thoughts, drown out the sounds, and then pick them apart till I find something I find precious. It's subjective, really. But I think this has helped me dive into others' oceans of thoughts. Exploring has never been so fun before. 
          
          Hoping to improve my reading and writing as I age

It's 3 in the morning. I spent the past 3-4 hours writing the character biography of my OC. Wilddd...
          
          I'm heavily reworking my book called "Alice Academy! ;)" that I wrote when I was around 11 or 12 y.o. under the username ShinAya_fan. I remember I was heavily into anything Kagerou Project or Mekakucity Actors. What a niche fandom that was... SAO II was still pretty new. Sinon was so loved by anime fans and the song people would play often was "Ignite" by Eir Aoi. I imagine Kenshi Yonezu, LiSA, Creepy Nuts, and YOASOBI would be the ones releasing more trending anime OPs now. See? I still keep up with my weeb shit even though I've aged a bit.
          
          My writing was so shit then. It's so funny. But it's loveable too at the same time. I was so young when I started. And this is how far I've come. I'm sure I write more cohesively now. But I still have never finished a story. I've finished a poetry collection though!
          
          Anyways, I'm excited to release that Gakuen Alice fanfiction remake that I've been working on. I've changed her surname from Kumiko to Komori, because Kumiko isn't even a surname. I've changed the details of her Alice. Demon Possession Alice sounds so edgy and I probably borrowed that from FT's Mirajane. I also made my OC an overpowered Mary Sue with no consistent character traits. 
          
          Ah, what fun reread that was. You can find my own hate comments in my old book somewhere! It's a funny thing to do to leave hate or critique on my old work. But Gakuen Alice or GA isn't as popular as it was before. It already wasn't as mainstream as Cardcaptor Sakura, Sailor Moon, Ouran High School Host Club, Maid-Sama, and other shoujo out there. I believe it's even harder for people to find Gakuen Alice now that there's just so much media out there. 
          
          But even if it's just for self-satisfaction, I want to make that remake. I don't know if I'll have any readers, but I do hope it reaches someone out there who has seen or read GA. I hope it will be appreciated when it does come out. :)

Got back to writing poems again. Reworked a lot of my old stuff too. Honestly, my edits made have a slightly different perspective since some time has passed. I'm glad to be back though. :)

Ugh... I got ambitious and made this plan to rework my old, unfinished fanfics.... BUT NOW I DON'T WANT TO AHAHSDHJBASHBD. How to rework an 11-year-old's writing anyway? Kinda a pain in the ass............ I'm whining about this now, but I've yet to delete those books from my drafts........... Cuz a part of me does wanna see those books come to a proper end askdnaskjdnkasdb
          
          Yeah. So well... I'll still be working on em

Lmao. Kinda funny when these bots (or idk... maybe they real people) comment or message about making writers profit or extend their audience reach. Like... Idc AHAHSJHDBAJHSBD
          
          Thanks for the free comments Ig. But more than that, it kinda feels like someone disposed trash in my room without a care. Unwarranted. And from absolute strangers too.
          
          But ig that's the reality of online platforms in the present day. It wasn't like this before. But it sure is easy for noise to just insert itself in a multitude of virtual spaces.
          
          That's a reality I have to come to accept... Eventually xD For now, let me be genuinely, openly, and fully be annoyed by it

Almost 3 months into my job and I feel like a changed person already ahahahaha. Is this what happens when you join working society? 
          
          Idk but this struggle isn't too bad. I'm just earnestly doing what I think I can do well. And since I've been adjusting fairly well, perhaps it's time to start writing again. 
          
          I'm a bit excited <3

I won't be so active on Wattpad anymore. That's mainly because I got a job! Yay!
          
          But... Well... Life happened. My heart has never been heavier. 
          
          I can't believe I'm at an age where friends and acquaintances can get married now, have kids and all that. It's a beautiful, yet unfamiliar happening. And that's great! 
          
          But this one... God... I don't know how I'll cope. A classmate of mine passed. A kind, friendly, easygoing kind of guy. He had just begun to chase what he wanted to do— pursue his goals. He's still so young.
          
          I have to work tomorrow. I still have to stay strong. But I guess... Life is so fleeting. Thinking back on him, my late classmate back in uni, I started to feel that I should channel my energy into things that absolutely matter.
          
          I don't wanna give more space for the angry, sad, despairing voices in my head. Even if I feel like a shell of a person at times, I think I'll want to try to be complete. 
          
          When life comes to an end, I want to leave more things that make people smile rather than making them cry.
          
          That being said, I will be publishing my poetry books in due time. Thanks for the support, votes, and comments on those works! 
           

Hi there! I saw you’re an author and got curious what sparked the idea for your very first book?  I find it so inspiring to hear how writers begin their journey.

Hi. If you want, you can  vote for @Marialenaliva:  Courage and Hope and Ariadne's Crown, and I can vote for your stories too." i will vote as @chrisoula3 i will write and 3 comments great chapter ,amazing. write and you please. The Crown of Ariadne. I hope you get to read it and enjoy it. It is based on a true love story. The title is connected to the story. And the other it's true story he is my grandfather.