𝓗𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮𝓷

I jus took down my previous work on here for personal reasons, almost nobody was reading either way , but I still needed to reassure myself some peace of mind. Again the reason has nothing to do with low numbers, in fact maybe i will be sharing some quotes on here but no more publishing <3

The Keep Notes app has deleted almost the entirety of the most important paragraph in a poem I've been working on, you don't understand how DAMAGING it is to cut the flow of ideas instantly after just being formed, and how HARD it is to get your ideas back without sounding like a robot or missing a big chunk of the concept. I'm also running out of time cause I have to be somewhere in 10 minutes so I won't be able to figure out how to get back to writing until 2 hours later from now, add absolute complete rage in my tone while you read this and thank u

"Because art speaks of it's own elegancy no matter how hard I try to mimicking a similar picture through equally beautiful words"

To know someone is to discover each layer of them on its own, to do that you need to analyse, to analyse people is to notice their details, to notice is to fully understand and admire an unexplainable concept, to form an opinion about a certain concept is to find it interesting.
          
          That's how I'm fond of you, I'm constantly getting more and more familiar with the definition of you

I've always wrote in first person, or let's say I've always wrote in a way where the poem runs around my personal emotions, so i thought it might be nice if the person speaking is the one observing the person experiencing love, and still having something rush inside the person receiving love. Throughout writing this I've really wanted to change this idea and turn it into the style were "I" is effected by "him" or "you" but naurr~
          
          I'll be editing it and then publishing soon <3

Maybe I'll start working hard if I put myself under pressure so here is an experiment, I'll TRY to finish a poem at this very moment and post it instead of writing down the key words and write it "later"

I need to limit using the same words &/or structure in my "poetry" :(
          
          I can't help it, it's my personal tone that I can't control , I'll try to introduce new elements in the future, but for now..
          
          I'm currently deciding whether I should stop a certain poem at the very moment or i should continue trying to dig out more to add from my inspiration sources , also there's an unfinished poem that I'm scared to approach cuz i fear it disappointing me in the end (⁠｡⁠•́⁠︿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠)
          
          Also i might and might not just completely stop chasing fame here and just put everything as a draft, I'll still be writing but i just won't post it anymore 

I've been strayed away by other small projects and all but I'm still working my way through our main novel which now is officially Lavender Maze, instead of the old title ^^

I'm hesitating between leaving the novel as it is , or once again changing the title and cover~
          The new title would be "Lavender Maze"
          
          It was first hard to love , then went to love like Lavender and it might have another new era

I've tried to be as active as i could, but my 2week holiday ends today ㅠㅠ