Hello everyone, this is lav, and I'm here to tell you what really happened to me that made me left my story hanging. No update, no nothing. On that time, i tried my best to write on my story but i js couldn't, i was too unstable and broken and i thought to myself, i couldn't do it, i shouldn't do it, pushing myself isn't a good idea either so i stopped. I got away from wattpad and not only with wattpad, i got away from social media too. On june first, i was supposed to update my story, because that day would be the happiest because june first is my boyfriend's birthday. And guess what, that day became the worst day of my life, the saddest i could get into. He broke up with me with no emotions in his eyes, di niya yun gusto pero ginawa niya for i don't know what reason. Di ako nagsulat kasi natatakot ako na super masakit na lang ang masulat ko, cuz, i was drained, i bruised my knuckles and wag ko na lang sabihin kung bakit. We were together for 6 months, i don't believe that he willingly broke up with me, then i knew from his friends, that he got a call from my dad on that time. My dad was always have been against our rs, he didn't want him to be my boyfriend for some reason, ksi di siya ganun kayaman. Grabe yung galit ko dun sa papa ko to the point, i completely cut him off from my life. We still haven't gotten back together ksi believe me nasaktan niya rin ako, ksi kung ano man ang sinabi ng papa ko na lumayo sya sakin ay ginawa niya parin as if di ako masasaktan. I hate him too pero mas umiibabaw yng pagmamahal ko sakanya. Nalaman ko rin sa friends nya na palagi daw yun umiiyak, umiinom ng alak to the point na alak na lang yung pangpatulog niya, i felt hesitant to go back to him at umiyak na lang din sakanya, because all my life he was always have been my crying shoulder, my home. Pero di ko yun ginawa, instead, I'm holding it. For idk how long, but until im healed again.