Kenz

If you look at me a wrong way and just laugh about it. Don’t fucking expect respect. Especially you and your fucking fat ass.

I hate fake bitches.

Fuck you. Fuck everything you did to me. I’m hurt but eventually I will become numb.
          
          And you will just be a silent little thought. 
          
          Just like I’m thumb for my family.

People are so fucking annoying. She acts like she likes me and then wants to be a fucking bitch. 
          

I just wanna escape. But there is none. First I get judged for my appearance. Surely mom’s at home aren’t judging their daughters? Right? Is that what society has come down to?
          
          Then I get judged for trying to start my own special thing. I wanna sing so why not start a song book. I mean I face things like this everyday so why not.
          
          But apparently it is not okay to actually wanna do something so badly that you write in the dark.
          
          Apparently just because you write in the dark you are weird. And not to mention this person has the audacity to make me look like some type of clown by yelling it out to my parents.
          
          Honestly is it so bad to want to do what I want. Is it bad that I want to take the reigns of my own life.

Sometimes you wanna cry but then you realize that person is coming into the room

Love how she walks around thinking she knows something that I don’t. 
          But I know the one thing that will make her look like an idiot

Update!

I recently stayed with someone’s family and they were so polite and kind. They put napkins on their laps at mealtimes, something my family has never taught us.
          
          They did not cuss and their children were respectful, something that I was never taught. I really have seen the better side of things and I want that for me and my future family. 
          
          I wanna be better than they ever were. Is that bad that I wanna teach my children things they have not taught me. I have nothing against my mother or father but she just is so cruel and she uses so many cuss words.
          
          I just find it disgusting. I’m done cussing or sounding disrespectful. I’m in the car on my way to long John silvers and she is gonna wear pajama pants. I just can’t imagine myself being like that in 20 years.
          
          I wanna change the world. I don’t want it to be like this anymore... is that so wrong?

I trusted her. I thought she would be here to watch me.
          I’m sorry but I don’t think I wanna be involved anymore.