Helenaheaven

Hey,
          ich suche aktuell wieder Autoren, die gerne Testleser und jemand für ein Coverdesign haben würden!
          
          Ich kann nicht mit einem ganzen Lektorat dienen, jedoch finde ich bestimmt den ein oder anderen Tipp- und Schreibfehler sowie kleinere Logikfehler.
          
          Außerdem probiere ich mich aktuell wieder im Coverdesign aus und biete deswegen eine kostenlose Umsetzung von euren Ideen dafür an :)
          
          Wer Interesse hat: Ich bin auf Instagram unter @wattpad_helenaheaven erreichbar <3

🌹 INVITATION 🌹
          
          I, Ms.km, invite you to become a Wild Rose and be a part of our small garden. 🌹
          
          Starting 12th October 2026, every year we will have a special chapter in my book “Wild Roses Competition” dedicated to our Wild Roses gathering.
          
          Here’s how it will work:
          
          ⏰ We will choose a specific time for the gathering.
          📖 Around 1 minute before that time, I will publish the chapter.
          🌹 When the time arrives, all you have to do is comment:
          
          “WILD ROSES HERE 🌹”
          
          And then… we have fun. 👀🌹
          
          There will be little challenges, games, questions, and other fun activities for everyone to join.
          
          You can also promote your account or your books in the comments during the event, so we can discover and support each other. 📚✨
          
          The event will only last around 15 minutes, because I know everyone has school, work, family, and real life too. 🤍
          
          🌍 TIME ZONES
          
          I will also post a separate chapter with the date and time for different countries around the world, so everyone can find their own time.
          
          If you cannot find your country, don’t worry! You can use another country’s time as a reference to find the correct time for your own country. 🌎⏰
          
          So…
          
          I invite you to our small garden. 🌹
          
          You are welcome here any time.
          
          And please share this invitation with as many people as you can, so our little garden can grow more and more. 🌹🌹🌹
          
          @Elite_Author3182012 — Ms.km
          
          Please do forward this invitation. 🌹

Leute ich will super gerne zurück zu meinem Buchcoverdesign-Hobby kommen. Ich bräuchte jemanden, von dem ich ma eine ungefähre Vorstellung umsetzen könnte. Hat jemand genügend Langeweile dafür??(kanna ich ein bereits existierendes Cover/Buch sein) :)

Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
          Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie
          Is the most effective way to deal with things
          You have no control over
          Keep listening to the mixtapes they made you
          Overanalyze every single word you hear
          Was this a sign that things were going wrong?
          No, no, you were the one that cared too hard, not them
          Stay up every single night staring at your phone
          Either attempting to gather up the courage to turn these demons
          These constant reminders of your loneliness
          Into nothing more than a bad dream
          Or praying just for one second
          You could feel the warmth of equally returned love
          Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself
          Always bring your notebook, never stop writing
          Leave little comics and thank you notes with your tip
          Watch them smile as you get in your car
          Talk down on yourself whenever possible
          My life is shit because I deserve it, right?
          You must have done something really bad
          It's nearly impossible for you to cry now
          Avoid your friends for weeks even though
          They're the only sense of consistency you have left in your life
          If they really wanted to see you they'd come, but they won't
          Who cares?
          Allow yourself to lose interest in the things you love
          Watch as you begin to take a backseat
          To the world around you, don't fight it
          Become a secondary character in your own motion picture
          But most importantly
          Drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum
          Learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat
          Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach
          You're drinking bottled love now
          You don't need other people to drive away your loneliness
          You just needed to find a way to talk to it
          

I don't want to trigger anyone so please think before you read this if you struggle with mental health, depression and su1c1dal thoughts.
          
          ---
          
          I will die.
          
          This is nothing surprising. Everyone will die, sooner or later, when they turn old and have wrinkles on their faces or when they take the wrong turn and get overrun by a drunk driver.
          
          It's not like that for me, never has been and never will be. When I die, it will be my own fault, fully. I will fall into depression as deeply as I did when I was 12. I will sit on a rooftop or in the bathtub with a blade in my hand.
          
          I will die before I experienced everything there is in life. Maybe love, maybe war, maybe true and eternal happiness. It will be at a point in my life when I will be alone. So deeply, depressingly lonely that nothing can fix it.
          
          I always felt like this. Knew it since I was 12.
          
          I cannot predict my death. I cannot see into the future and know how my life will end. But I always felt things more deeply than others did.
          I understand people. I see their hearts and souls and while this is a blessing, it's also a warning.
          
          To fix and change things as long as I am still here. Help who I can, save who needs to be saved, support who is on their own. 
          
          I am sorry for all of it. For the mistakes, the hurt feelings, I am sorry for the wrong words and the early goodbye that I will say. I am sorry for myself. 
          
          But I will die, in the end, just like intended, because mental illnesses do not reward their victims fights with life, but with peace.

Die letzten Kapitel sind immer die schwersten :')

"The way growing up too soon destroys your mind, your body, your soul. That's what hurt the most, probably."

Happy Pride month! I uploaded a new poem yesterday :)
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/411801619

Hier für alle Poesie Fans, oder die, die endlich Mal wieder etwas von mir lesen wolle, das kein Roman ist. Ich habe es vermisst.
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/411801619

How poetic that the colour of blood is considered the colour of love.