this message may be offensive
I wanna apologize for my disappearances lately....
Times are rough..
I've hit a harsh time in life.
I lost all connections with my dearest Flame...
She refuses to let me explain my choice in words.
I was trying to be a good friend.
I just hope she knows I'm falling apart without her.
I'm dying.
I miss your touch and your kind words.
I wanted you to understand I was trying to be a good friend...
I wasn't trying to be how I was previously to the first time.
I was trying to do the opposite of what I am used to.
Thinking the worst before the best.
I reversed it and made it worst. I took your previous advice and I couldn't make it work. I'm sorry, but I hope you fucking know I love you for you.
Honestly, how fucking dare you say that, it seemed like you did, I never loved you for you. How the fuck do you think I fell for you? I fell in love with you. Not your looks. Not your words. Not JUST those things. I never liked you for your looks, I loved you for who you are.
Don't you ever fucking think or say something like that EVER again unless it's true. I'm going to be a complete fucking dick about this until you understand the truth.
I'm also becoming fairly ill. I'm a tad bit weaker than I have been since the start of this. Can't really hold a lot of food down lately. Not interested in a lot anymore. I don't have a lot of inspiration or motivation either.