Hellohaveaniceday88

this message may be offensive
God I need a fucking hug
          	
          	I know that I’m not a bad person, everyone I have asked if I am has said no. But I continue to reread our messages questioning what I did wrong. What I did to fuck you up or if just made you worse. You never told me what I did wrong. The few things I know I did wrong I owned up to, something you could never do, but I keep questioning what more I could have done if you wanted me to fix you or put you back together with my bones slowly cracking under the pressure. I was 12 trying to beg you to stay alive, I don’t know what I was supposed to do. We are both dumb kids but that isn’t an excuse for either of us, you should know better and you’re a hypocrite and I hate you and Jesus Christ I just want some goddamn closure and for you to be out of my life permanently!…I miss you though, is that bad? I know your birthday and favorite color and favorite Pokémon, your least favorite and favorite foods, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with this information and it’s driving me nuts. What am I supposed to do without you?