HereComesThyShipper

Hello, I am 1 of ur readers, did u log out or sum? If so, dont reply never reply

Imagine laughing at your really bad childhood experiences at 5:03am and then realising how much they fucked up your mental state but you were to guillable and optimistic to realise haha...unless?
          
          
          For real though looking back on it, I had one fucked up childhood and I didn't even realise it because I was convincing myself that everything was fine.

I’m gonna vent here since no one sees this shit anyways...
          
          You guys know Steven Universe right? And how he’s becoming a completely different person and is developing more problems. As the episodes go on and on I’m slowly finding out that I relate to him. How he’s acting is how I act. Obviously not to the point where I kill a person but I could kill a person if I wanted to. I just have morals. But I’m slowly becoming like him. I’m helping everyone through their own shit even though I’m struggling as well and no one even asks if I’m ok most times. 
          
          I guess they just think I don’t need their help. When I really, really do. I can’t remember the last time when my friends (not my online ones because they care) asked if I was ok. This is probably my cry for help at this point because I really don’t know what to do. I feel obligated to help everyone in every way I can but why the fuck do I feel like this? I can’t help with everyone’s problems but everytime they ask for my help, I’m there. I just wish they gave me help back. Then I wouldn’t be like this. 
          
          Maybe I’m being too self-centered you can say if I am or not but I just really can’t put up with this. But also alternatively I really don’t want people to listen to my problems and become bored as hell or not care.
          
          If you’ve read this far you can carry on with your life, vent is over.

So...I’m currently coming back from seeing the new My Hero film and don’t worry no spoilers but the thing that’s playing through my mind is:
          
          Current Objective: Don’t piss pants.
          
          As I had a really big Tango and my stupid ass didn’t go to the toilet at all 
          
          Haha iM In daNgEr.

Does anybody know what my secret power is? 
          
          
          
          Deleting 100+ photos, my search history, Instagram and logging out my Wattpad account in 5 minutes or less while a family member was gonna he check my phone 
          
          I was very proud of myself 
          
          
          But also hit flatline when I realised it’ll probably take longer to get it back and when I was put under pressure 

Advice: Don’t take a nap.
          
          I got woke up after sleeping for 42 minutes because I ‘wasn’t supposed to be sleeping’ and as a result of me sleeping, my tired sleep deprived ass got dragged out the house to go somewhere. I’m not taking a nap again I swear to god.

Bruh its my first day back at school and I’m lowkey already hating it 

I just got a new phone and opened up all my Christmas presents earlier than any normal human being (I opened them at midnight and then I went to bed at 2 )

I don't really care if anyone sees this I'm just posting this here because it's an accomplishment  
          
          I finished Wandersong within the span of 3 days boiiiizzz 
          
          (And I may or may not have cried at the end)

Should I be proud that I got 1-4 hours of sleep through the entire school week or not? I mean 
          
          Achievement Unlocked: Sleep Deprived 
          But also 
          Achievement Unlocked: Surprisingly Still Alive?