HI MATTILLIAM HERE! I wanted to state that whatever horrible things were in that diary reading fic, I truly am sorry. I will be honest, I wrote it many many years ago and I forgot a lot of the things in it. I was 12ish, more like 11 going on 12, when I wrote it, and I am currently 16 going on 17 now. Anything in there that is absolutely atrocious such as romanticized disorders or generally gross ships, I do apologize for genuinely.
I was swept into the 'angst' side of the internet, which I am not saying as a justification, but as an explanation. I am a much better person and writer now, I don't write such disgusting things as I did in that old fan fiction. And I never will.
I grew out of Wattpad after I wrote that fic and ultimately deleted it. However, I returned last year as my friends and I started a roleplay. I spent a minimal amount of time on this account before I logged out and went to our shared account.
I've recently come back here though since that fic is on hold, likely not going to be written on that account anymore. So, many people who pointed out the atrocities within the fic went unnoticed. Luckily, someone recently pointed it out and now I can address it. My point is, I am sorry for everything in that thing. I'm not longer that person, instead I try to write cute things, and if I don't it'll never be something like that fic.