I really think I never got closure because I left you alone. I did it because it was what you wanted, not what I wanted. I wanted to talk, to know why. I wanted to stay close because you really were a best friend and one of the reasons I stayed alive this year. But recently I’ve realized you’ve changed so much that even if I did try to seek closure the person I’d be talking to would be entirely different then the one I knew, so how could he possibly have the answers I’m looking for? I think at this point, my closure is a lost cause. Instead I may just have to live with an open wound until the pain dulls and becomes routine