HeyIamMariam

Embrace your shyness,
          	Cry in public, 
          	Have big big feelings, 
          	BE A MESS. 
          	

HeyIamMariam

"I was often short of words. I never liked to talk about what hurt the most. I still don't. The girl I was, I wasn't anymore. It didn't cross my mind until someone asked me why I had changed. At first I thought, everyone changes. Everyone goes through something that unknowingly makes them different to who they used to be. But I knew, it was just something I didn't want to admit. I held on to who I was until my smile hardly meant a thing. It was one of those days I knew, I had become someone else. I felt weak, I had always been afraid. But I found what was always there, I found Allah.
          He was there all along, but me, I had been blind. I had given my love away when I should've given it to Him.
          There are days when I still wander, like my soul is lost at sea. But I know, I know in my heart that things will get better because He has already found me."

HeyIamMariam

"I ask myself the same question everyday.
          What is happiness? Where can it be found? 
          The answer: Allah
          I have known the answer for a long time but I have always been afraid.
          I'm afraid to be happy because I know it can be taken away from me. I have grown tired.
          Some days I feel empty.
          Some days I am full of light.
          I sit in the darkness in the middle of the night I find answers there.
          You will come across people that don't understand what it feels like to be left alone.
          Just you and your thoughts.
          I am unhappy and I don't know why.
          In order to let him in, I have to open my heart.
          This for you. For the souls that have always been lost. You will be okay.
          No matter how you feel, smile.
          Do good. I promise you, you will find happiness.
          I laughed the other day, I laughed so much.
          I forget how it felt but in that moment I knew.
          I knew this broken heart of mine would soon be whole. And so will yours... ❤