demonic leftovers

2024 GRADUATE!!!

I’ve been on this platform since before my first days of 8th grade, and now I’m graduating in a month. I just want to say thank you to every single person who supported me on this crazy journey. Five years is absolutely insane. ❤️

January of this year, my neighbor, who was in my band and just barely younger than me, passed away. I didn’t want to mention it on here because it’s personal, obviously, and I didn’t want to treat it like an excuse for something. Grieving takes time, but I’ve come to cope with the loss. However, my break is going to extended nonetheless. I don’t know how long, but I need time. Thank you all for staying with me and reading my stories. You have no clue how much I’ve gained from the feedback and love and support you all give ❤️

I feel like I’ve done this multiple times, saying I’m gonna get things done and then leaving for multiple months at a time. I guess I’m just not really inspired right now. Like I’ve been so busy with my schoolwork that when I do take a break I just play video games and relax my brain. 
          
          It feels impossible to write anything right now, especially about the egos. I feel tired of them. I’ve been writing fanfics about them since 2019, but it feels as though it’s come to the point where it’s not just silly, one-off, videos anymore and are now stories. There’s no more just making stuff up, instead I have to wait for new content to even think about writing anything, because I feel like I shouldn’t just ignore Jack or Mark’s hard work and create something that doesn’t follow their canon plots. 
          
          It’s not even their fault, it’s just the way that my mindset works that forces me to be a perfectionist with every detail. So, this is me saying that I am taking an official break. Until an idea sparks or I get back in the right mood, I will be leaving wattpad. It’s not a huge deal, like I know a lot of people here probably know how much I take “breaks”, but I wanted to make this one official because I feel it might allow me to actually pause and not have to think about my fanfics at the moment. 
          
          I know this was pretty long-winded, but I just felt like sharing this. I feel it’s important people don’t think I’m never coming back to wattpad. I am. I just need a bit of space from any writing at the moment. 

My biggest pet peeve about school is the homework, and not even because it’s already adding onto the six hours of non-stop learning that we get. It’s the fact my teachers will literally say “an hour or two for my class isn’t that long”. Like, no, but that’s not even considering the fact that we not only have other classes that have that same mentality, but also there are extracurriculars, clubs, sports, and jobs to worry about. And let’s not forget at some point we should sleep.
          
          Based on how much homework teacher’s want to give, I wouldn’t be done until 2 AM the next day- not including any breaks. No thanks, man. I’d rather sleep. Oh wait, that just isn’t an option.

Today was my first day of school- which was literally less than two hours- and already I’m tired

It’s come to my attention that many of my books have been lacking warnings and people come into the books and feel uncomfortable. So, for my new books/one-shots I’m going to be adding more TWs to make sure everyone is aware of/comfortable with the content I put out.

Finally got a chapter of Hanahaki up after a year and seven months of ghosting it. I honestly don’t even know how to respond to that. They made a three hour long Marvel movie faster than I could write a thousand word chapter of a fanfiction with a plot as basic as the white girls at my highschool.

After deleting over twenty story drafts from this app, I can successfully say all that made me want to do is make more and not continue books I’ve already started lol

I was literally planning on doing nothing for my sweet sixteen and then my aunt goes and surprises me with tickets to Hamilton for that night (this was yesterday). Honestly one of the best experiences of my life. God, I love my relatives.