Heyitsnumber8

Is done an emotion? Because I feel it in my soul  /hj

Heyitsnumber8

My mum and aunt love me guys. And it was for my own good that they were being hard on me the past years. Let me be honest with you, I'm not the most perfect daughter and I've not appreciated them enough. It wasn't until last night that I realised how much they actually mean to me and how much they love me and how much they've done for me. Last night when I was all melancholy and started throwing up due to anxiety,my mum and aunt sat beside me,one held my hair up and the other rubbed my back,and I got so emotional that I started crying. What a mess I would've been,but they told me that "No matter what happens I'll always be their little girl and no amount of 'good grades' are worth me" and that they love me. They also apologised for their misbehaviour and frankly I understand them now. Earlier I was too blinded by my hatred that I failed to view things from their perspective. But after last night, something inside me clicked and now I know that I'm gonna ace my exams and become someone they can be truly proud of. I also love and appreciate all of you guys on wattpad so much who've been there for me. I just feel so happy now and I'm not feeling scared anymore (at least not so much). 
          Sorry for the long ass paragraph, it needed to be said and I figured that if I shared all my bad moments with you,why not share my good moments as well?  I'll stop writing now. 
          Have a great day/afternoon/evening/night everybody! 
          Love ya<3

thisusergaveuponlife

@ Heyitsnumber8  Aw, thank you! I didn't think anyone would notice I'm not online much <3
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Heyitsnumber8

@thisusergaveuponlife thank you so much sugar! Also welcome back! <3
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thisusergaveuponlife

@ Heyitsnumber8  Aw, I'm very happy for you (: I'm glad you understand each other better now and I hope it'll continue to be that way.
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Heyitsnumber8

I'm scared

Heyitsnumber8

@i-am-bob thank you so much. You've always been there for me and tbh words can't even begin to comprehend how much I love (/p) and appreciate you. I'm doing better now thank you so much again for reaching out. 
            Love ya(/p) <3
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i-am-bob

@Heyitsnumber8 it’s okay lovely <33 pm if you want :))
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Heyitsnumber8

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@i-am-bob I don't know to be honest of the future? of everything? of disappointing my mum? It's just idk I just want to cry and I don't even know why. I know that things will be alright but a part of me is just....sad and scared? I feel like shit to be honest and have been crying like a fool and nothing seems to be working for me. I probably sound crazy but it's just how I feel. It's an indescribable feeling of sadness, nostalgia,fear mixed with anxiety and a teeny tiny bit of hope and I don't like it at all. Sorry for ranting. 
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Heyitsnumber8

Hey y'all! I JUST GOT THE MOST ADORABLE PUPPY I'VE EVER SEEN! My aunt got the puppy from a person she knew and he said that I could have it! Idk what breed she is or how old she is as she was a foundling but judging from her teeth and coat I guess she's 8 weeks old. 
          I named her Luna. It's the first time I've got a puppy and I've got no idea how to raise her except for some articles I read about puppy raising. But my mother and other aunt along with my sisters and brother never listen to me. They insist on doing things they think are right even when they are not and I have a feeling that they're going to be a headache while raising Luna. But I'll try my best and if god wishes I might be having a loyal companion. Any tips on how to raise a pup? I'M SO DAMN EXCITED AAAAAHHHH! 
          Anyways, love y'all <3