Lazy Little Lonely Loser

On todays episode of horrible quotes from smut that make no sense and are probably written by babies and/or AI:
          
          “His balls slap against her clit with each thrust” 
          Note this was not doggy or anything similar, it was against a wall. That’s not how that works I fear 
          
          Also another story that said smth about the guy pinning the girl with his knees around her head while he was fucking her in missionary?? That’s not how that works I fear 
          
          I am confused. Hope y’all are doing good.

Heyyy life update time
          
          Y’all can prob tell I’m really inactive on here which is mainly for my own mental health but I do stop by occasionally.
          
          Soooo here’s the updates: I’m doing pretty great, I actually have a solid friend group now for the first time in a few years and I have a wonderful amazing girlfriend! 
          
          I’m probably going to come back to post some poetry soon so if y’all are interested I’ll try to do that :) 
          
          Ily all so much and I hope you’re all doing amazing <3

Hey guys!
          
          I’m alive :) 
          
          I’m not very active in case you didn’t notice lol, but I may stop by occasionally so if you message me I’ll see it. 
          
          This was my first year of high school and the best year of my life. Yeah it’s had a lot of awful moments but I have people now who can help me get through it(not a therapist still but some amazing friends). 
          
          I really hope you are all doing amazing and I promise if you reach out I will respond the second I see it. Love you all so much. 
          
          Ps: I’m not dying anytime soon lol, just back to say hi and ily. I’ve had a lot of hard times but I have people who need me and I cant die and let them down. Ever.

Hey are u alive 

Get told I look like someone from a podcast. Don’t know how that works but thanks I guess??

I was at camp for a few weeks and now I’m in Virginia with family which is fun
          
          My mom picked me up after 2 weeks of not seeing or writing to me, then dropped me off at the nearest McDonald’s with my grandpa and left for Maryland. It’s the first time she’s seen me cry. I didn’t miss her at camp but I finally got to see her and she left for another fucking lacrosse thing with my brothers. 
          
          We played a game at camp that is basically trauma dumping (we go around in a circle and answer a question/prompt but it gets deep) and they brought up parents and although we ran out of time and I never spoke I was crying the whole time because everyone talked about how their parents were either their best friends, someone they could lean on, not great but their siblings helped them through it, or strict, and mine are just gone. I wish I could stay at camp longer. 
          
          At camp I was cramping and my counselor sat with me, and another one said she’d warm me up a heating pad the next day (which I denied because it was a hassle for her and I was fine the next day and I’ve never used one). I cried that night because these people I hardly know cared so much. They cared for me even though I gave nothing in return. I’m crying now, alone with my younger brother in my grandmas house. my dad is in Utah, mom and older brother in Maryland. My little brother’s leaving in a few days, then a few days later I’ll fly home.
          
          I just wish i could be at camp, where people care and don’t judge. I don’t like it here. Camp is my escape. Next year is my last year unless I become a counselor which u have to get called back for. I fucking hate it at home. I wish I could stay there forever.

I was gonna vent here but Im making a book to do it so y’all don’t get bothered by notifications

Hi this is Ezra on my new account I got kicked out of my old one

Dude I’m so tired rn
          
          Also my room is so messy it’s scaring me
          
          School is done. Graduation tomorrow then I can rest and get back on my feet. Yippee

yesterday I fell asleep on my floor right when I got home from exhaustion. then I dragged myself downstairs, chugged over 100 mg of caffeine and did my homework. I went above to help my project group and fix everyones mistakes. 
          
          as long as I can stand (which I hurt my hamstrings and almost can't stand rn oopsies) I will stand strong. people can lean on me and ill hold myself together so they can look to me for help and comfort. 
          
          I accidentally slipped the other day and texted my friend for help crying. this friend is the best and he helped me and I was back the next day on my feet like nothing happened. 
          
          just a few more days until summer. just a few more years until college and leaving this damn house. just a few more hours until my legs give out and I pass out. goodnight