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@Hi1444 You have meaning. Maybe you did something small for someone else, or the connections ypu made in life.You know, you are one of the readers who are so dedicated to this book, more than me lol. And so I keep on going with this book even when I wanted to give up on it. You brought meaning to it for me. You as one of the dedicated readers to this book gave me a reason to continue on even if I update maybe a month or a year later lol. But I want to keep on going because of you. So remember my dear reader, you have meaning to me; your life has meaning and is worth living to see another day.
            And think about this too, did you go where you wanted to go yet? Did you try a dissertation that you really wanna try? Or why not go on a road trip. Maybe save up money bit by bit and find meaning on that. Think about the bit you save up so you can go enjoy life. 
            So to your question. Yes, life has meaning, it is worth living. Look for help if you feel like you reach an end. Or help yourself by remember you are strong, and you had gone far to reach this point. Why give up when reaching this point? Keep on going and throw any obstacles in your way. 
            Take care okay? And I hope to hear from you in the next chapter update. Love ya!

@Hi1444 But always remember you had reached this point, why not go further? I would remind myself "yes. I live life to life in a boring pattern; I do the same thing I did yesterday and maybe tomorrow will be the same as the presence. But does life have to be something grand to live it? And maybe I suffered yesterday and today, but maybe I can change that and think I dont want to cry again or feel like I'm worth nothing."
            
            And its hard, but like I said, life doesn't have to be a grand thing to live for, or that we have to be a special person in the world to be allowed to live it. What matters is you being special in your world, not in someone else's. And think about the little things.
            "Hey, maybe I feel like life is meaningless, but maybe I want to hear this one song again and if im gone, how am I sure ill ever hear it again?" Or "I want to see this story im reading now to the end. If I give up, then I won't know the end of it."
            Little things like this can become our meaning if we can't for ourselves. And then I think about those around me, I have a friend of now 15 years. She is my best friend, I can even say like a sister to me. I wonder what will happen to her if im gone and I shake my head. Because I do not want to hurt her in that way. I think of the few connections I had made and I know they would be hurt if I decided fully to believe that life isn't worth living, that it doesn't have meaning. 
            
            

m not gonna lie to you. That question I ask myself more than I would like to. Sometimes the answer is no, but then I think this.
            "Maybe it isn't worth much, but I made it this far. I always fight with that question but always decide to live because why not? I made it this far, then I may as well go further."
            And with that. I decide to ignore that question "is life worth living?"
            Because that question we usually ask our self when we reach a point we don't feel like it does have any worth; we feel like we keep going in life with a dull heart or a pained heart.
            
            

@MeysBluel of course! A new year, a new chapter lol!