Kianna

Hey

The worst part is that we act so happy to hide everything away until it finally is to much. Parents tell their kids "Your to young to have depression."  Friends tell them "Your only doing it for attention."  But in reality they just want someone to hear their quiet cries for help. 
          Suicide is never the answer. No matter how crappy you feel just keep your head held high no matter what happens you can get through this. It doesn't matter what other people say or think of you. It only matter that at least one person is there for you. Don't do don't end your life of the stupid people out there. They only exist to try and dim your flame and drag you down, but no matter who dies or what you go through....At the end of the day you are a beautiful human who deserves love no matter what. Never give up on yourself. No matter what you are a priority to me and to the people around you. You MATTER! Never forget that. ( I wrote this comment on a video and decided to share it here as well)

Is it just me or do things seem to get worse when you can't take it anymore?

in my post the daughter part refers to the fact that my mom refuses to call me anything else because she doesn't believe in my transition

....VENT WARNING.....
          I hate how my mom tells me to be happy and then takes away the very things that make me happy. She tells me to get over myself and that i'm just throwing a pity party when actually I'm just trying to express myself and I know I can come off as the type of person to not care about a lot of things but really I care about everything I care about the littlest things and it hurts to know that some people can just sit by me and pretend to care about me. I just can't take this anymore I have to put on a fake smile and parade it around when inside I think about cutting and commiting. Then when I try to tell my mom these things she just gets mad and says she won't have her daughter end up like my dad who commited suicide this septemeber and on fucking top of that when I cry she tells me your just trying to make people feel sorry for you like no bitch i'm trying to let my goddamn feelings out. Then when I had finally meet people who fucking care about me she brought up my sexuality and started being rude and coming at me for it then she took my motherfucking phone and now I'm not able to text my friends the only motherfucking people who cared enough to text me every morning and every night now matter how fucked up their lives where and now I can't even talk to them. And on top of that bullshit I have tried to talk to them on discord but non of us are on at the same time so it never works out. And then to put the motherfucking cherry on top I hurt my fucking knee after getting out of the goddamn hospital so not only did I just get out of the hospital but I am now on crutches for 2 fucking months and can't play volleyball the only other thing that keeps me sane. I know this is a lot and I don't expect any of you to feel sorry for me I just wanted to get this off my chest
          -Hibiki

hi

// Kawaii-chan..?

Thank you for the follow and putting my book in your library!!! 

There are so many things going on in our world right now and I want everyone to know that no matter what we must still support each other on here. It doesn't matter if we don't know each other in the real world, because this is our world and we need to have it be positive. I know some of you feel the racist comments harder than others, but still we need to be strong and prove to the world that no matter how bad racial discrimination gets we will not falter. In fact we will only get stronger. People may try to break your spirit or try to harm you and, they just might succeed. They may think they have broken us once they have beaten us but your body is just a cover for what you believe and no one can take that from you. I want you all to stay safe and stand up for what's right. You can choose to ignore this message if you want but those of you willingly to listen and understand....Your going to bring the change that we all long for.

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