Tashvi Pant

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

GUYS, IM BACK IN BUSINESS! No more stressful band stuff!

My life is really tough right now. I’ve lost all motivation. I just need to rant because I feel awful and hate myself. I could never hurt myself seriously, but I am definitely scratching myself and banging my head on the wall. Apparently, there’s this boy, R from Augentstein math, whom I haven’t even spoken to this year. Last year, we had a math group chat that got wild, and unfortunately, I was part of it. Some guy sent R a video of Indian guys dancing (I’m Indian, so is R), and I went overboard by sending the whole clip showing British people mocking them and then them dancing. I honestly thought the guy was being racist, so I said, just think about what you’re saying before you say it. I also talked about how people were racist to me. The whole thing blew up, and people told me to “stop overreacting,” even R, though I was backing him up. Now, this year, he’s taking screenshots from somewhere and sending them around, even asking a girl in the NHS group chat to share it. I sort of apologized in the group chat (“I thought it was like this, form your own opinion, I can’t say anything”) and asked R why. Nothing accusatory, just why. This morning, before I knew about this, one of my boyfriend’s friends said, “You were going crazy in the emails.” I said, “What?” and he replied, “Don’t lie. You know what I’m talking about,” but I seriously didn’t. He left it at that. I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel so bad. I just needed to rant. I’ve decided to close in on myself and not talk to anyone. Be quiet. I don’t care if anyone notices. I honestly want someone to notice, to ask what’s wrong. I feel messed up. Sorry. This is stupid. (The first time I wrote this, it exceeded the limit. There is more. I just cant write about all of it. I am so stressed though.

I don't really know if anyone even sees these, but it's my bday today, so yay!
          Sep 10! Today! I'm turning officially teen.

Hey y'all! Just finished my Solangelo over the days! Do check it out! I think it's great for my first solangelo fic! Please do put aside the time to read!

Hey guys! To everyone who has followed me, I have started re-writing again in my Solangelo Over the Days book, so if you could check it out, I would greatly appreciate it!

Also, feel free to recommend other people to this place. You can talk about whatever. I will never judge <3 There is too much of that in this world.

Hey guys. I know this might not be the perfect, but I wanted to try something. If you want to, you can comment down below on something you need help with, are struggling with, or even if you just want to talk. I don't really know why I am doing this, but something tells me that I should. So, if you want, you can. Followers, I feel like I shouldn't have to include this, but there will be NO shaming whatsoever. This is a safe place to talk. About WHATEVER you want. NOTHING is too small. If you have nothing you need to talk about, then let this message serve as a reminder to you. That you are worth it. That you HAVE made someone's life, even if a little bit. Take care of yourselves, my lovelies. 
          
          I love you always, 
          Ash (HimBlue11)

Thank you so much for the follow

you seem like a cool person, so now me has followed you.