Crystal_Snow

Would love and appreciate if you guys read this it's a malay historical romance fiction. 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/389006859

New story is up "The Thorned Songket"
          
          A malay historical romance fiction. 

I'm not someone who like to reason when I'm too tired with such a bs..
          Or you can say it more like me telling them the real fact when they already start to assume things about me and making up shit..
          
          I just let them do it and I do rather calm my anger down first. Cause, I know how bad my temper can be..
          
          I mean, if they want or seek truth from me.. they would never assume anything in the first place right? 

As usual, I don't have the energy to fight for any kind of relationship..
          
          So if you think that I'm bad, then just walk away..
          More space for the real one..

I don't believe in love
          not me
          
          you guys stay safe

Can I get drown in my own sadness tonight? 
          
          
          
          I'm tired 

They ask again, "what you already become?" 
          I answer again and again with the same sentence "just a failure..."
          
          They ask me "what did you got?" With eager face..
          Then they left with a disappointment..
          
          I can see it..
          
          I hate myself, I know..

Honestly I'm tired of living but I just rarely talk about it now..
          
          I'm truly exhausted, tired of crying silently every night. Wish I could know what's not enough about me that everyone seems to be treating me like shit..
          
          What's not enough about me dad? Can you for once not yelling, screaming and get mad overy everything and anything that I do. Can't you not try to lash out on me when it's someone else's misdoings..

Camne eh nak cakap...
          
          Actually aku banyak je idea, sumpah idea aku best ii gila..
          the thing is...aku malas gila nak type or karang ayat. So setiap idea or cerita yg aku ada tu memang tak jadi or separuh jalan. 
          
          Aku bagi idea boleh, tapi kalau aku sendiri type memang ke laut sebab malas and aku rasa macam ayat aku bodoh ii

I was the one who love it when you love me more,
          But you was the one who distance yourself when I love you more. 
          
          Am I don't deserve to feel happy for once?