Crystal_Snow

I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm mentally tired. Idk what to feel anymore. Why is it always me that's hurting. 

I used to love so deeply, but now i’m terrified of it. I’ve become so scared of being abandoned again, being used or taken for granted. I used to get so excited whenever I started to like someone, now it’s just pure dread with trust issues. It’s kinda draining putting so much love and effort into someone, only to end up hurt and left with nothing in return.

I hate love, I hate it....so much

Everyone says things they don’t mean sometimes and ends up regretting it. But when they said it, did it even cross their mind? Or do they only feel bad after seeing how the other person reacts?

Would love and appreciate if you guys read this it's a malay historical romance fiction. 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/389006859

New story is up "The Thorned Songket"
          
          A malay historical romance fiction. 

I'm not someone who like to reason when I'm too tired with such a bs..
          Or you can say it more like me telling them the real fact when they already start to assume things about me and making up shit..
          
          I just let them do it and I do rather calm my anger down first. Cause, I know how bad my temper can be..
          
          I mean, if they want or seek truth from me.. they would never assume anything in the first place right? 

As usual, I don't have the energy to fight for any kind of relationship..
          
          So if you think that I'm bad, then just walk away..
          More space for the real one..

I don't believe in love
          not me
          
          you guys stay safe

Can I get drown in my own sadness tonight? 
          
          
          
          I'm tired