I HATE SNAKEU

Do you know what it is like?
          To hide and only come out
          When you're allowed?
          To spend hours asleep
          And wake up and forced to
          Deal with all the pain?
          You got happiness
          I got pain
          When we look at it
          We are both the same
          However you pretend
          You don't know
          What I'm like
          But you know what it's like
          To feel the pain
          You make it all mine
          Give me the gift of suffering
          I give you happiness
          Why can't we share?
          Do you know what it's like?
          To only live to suffer?
          Ignore me until I'm needed?
          I don't want your good advice
          Or reasons why I'm alright
          You forgot what it's like!
          You can't see what it's like
          I can feel what it's like
          Suffering every night
          don't look at me like that
          I'm not perfect
          I tried
          Should I just give up?
          Should I just let go?
          Because if this isn't good for me
          I don't wanna know
          You fooled the fool
          Gave me the pain
          Trusted me with suffering
          I gave you all I had to gain
          Now we're both alone

I drown
          The water 
          All around
          yet none
          There's no water
          I am drowning
          In fear
          In dreams
          In expectations
          I tried
          Tried to swim
          Yet I can't
          My arms flail
          Then I saw
          Your smile
          Can I reach
          And touch your arm?
          Can you save me?
          Save me
          From myself?
          I'm torn
          I can dive
          Deeper
          And keep them happy
          Or take your arm
          And make myself happy
          But would you let me?
          I want you
          But I also want
          You to save you
           yourself
          Don't save me
          Please don't save me
          Save yourself
          Don't smile like that
          And don't grab my arm
          Don't pull me out
          And don't drown
          Trying to save me
          I will dive deeper
          To avoid your reach
          I flail but
          Refuse to drag you down
          So you dive
          And you swim to me
          You take me in your arms
          In the arms of an angel
          And you save me
          But the lead in my heart
          Must have leaked out
          And now we remain
          Together
          At the bottom of the sea
          Forever
          Dying and letting life be
          without us
          But we are alright
          Because
          We love
          And we hope
          For the day
          We remember to swim 
          For the day
          The angel
          Drags me up
          She won't leave me
          She will stay here
          Together
          Until we die