Hochhauspoesie

The thing is, when you feel bad, you want people to notice. You want them to care. So you start showing emotion, let your eyes fill with tears, but never let them leave your eyes. You turn away, act sad, act crazy. And when people ask you, if you're okay, you just say that you are okay. The reason for this is, those are not the people you want to notice. You want that person to notice. So you leave. It's okay I am just gonna go. And you turn around and see if the followed you. But they didn't. They never. 

Hochhauspoesie

The thing is, when you feel bad, you want people to notice. You want them to care. So you start showing emotion, let your eyes fill with tears, but never let them leave your eyes. You turn away, act sad, act crazy. And when people ask you, if you're okay, you just say that you are okay. The reason for this is, those are not the people you want to notice. You want that person to notice. So you leave. It's okay I am just gonna go. And you turn around and see if the followed you. But they didn't. They never. 

Hochhauspoesie

I wonder if you still care. If you still ask yourself what's going on in my head. If you're still thinking about that summer. Everybody keeps asking what I am thinking about. If they knew, that would look at me differently. There are things that can't quite possibly understand myself. Summer brings out the worst in me. It reminds me of you, love, alcohol, hope and death. And I understand what I am. I get it. It's hard to accept and live with, but I'll deal. Moving to the big city brings promises. You did promise. You lied. And every so often I think about you. I stopped telling myself that everything will be okay a long time ago. The big city. The danger. The job. The night. The rage. The lonelyness. I am thinking of you. I have these visions and they haunt me. Everything will turn out as it should. Everything will happen. And what will happen, will be.
          
          Holding onto old memories hasn't held the charm as it once did. I hope you understand that now.

littleplinfa

Ich mag deinen Namen... irgendwie....
          der ist toll... warum zur Hölle bin ich nicht so kreativ?

Hochhauspoesie

@ littlePlinfa  danke dir! Leider muss ich zugeben, das ich nicht alleine auf den Namen gekommen bin. Habe den Namen auf insta gesehn nd ich fand ihn so schön, das ich ihn benutzt habe.
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flowerybones

ich hab deine Seite gerade bei einer Frerard ff gefunden und mir ist dein Name so bekannt vorgekommen, dann gehe ich so auf dein Profil und merke, dass ich dir schon vor ner Weile Mal gefolgt bin, wegen dem Tardy Stuff xD
          
          u got some good fandoms there 

Hochhauspoesie

@ flowerybones  x33 welcome back 
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kcutlas

Ughhhh. It's saying you wrote on my message board but I can't see it :((
          
          What was it??

Hochhauspoesie

@ KassandraCutlas  okay good luck with the publisher :) and I'm seeing forward to read it again it was really good btw
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kcutlas

@Hochhauspoesie I honestly have no idea. I haven't had time to look at it because of school and having other non-fanfiction ideas (I wanna start sending stuff to publishers for little writing jobs to get money for home). I promise it'll be sometime this summer. Because then I know for sure I'll have time away from school enough where I can multitask with my fiction and fanfiction stuff :)
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Hochhauspoesie

@ KassandraCutlas  when do you publish home again? 
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