*Hollow*

The book I just posted is the first draft of my passion project; I really hope you all like it and will want to read the entire trilogy, once I actually finish writing it. The draft of the first book is written — 21 chapters plus a prologue. The second and third books will be taking place in roughly the same time-space.
          I’m really nervous about this soooo I hope you like it <3
          Hollow

Take me far away,
          From the sorrow,
          From the pain.
          From the light that shines right through me,
          From the blood that’s in my veins.
          From the words my mouth has spoken,
          From the thoughts my mind has thought.
          All that’s left will be
          A girl that’s fought for naught.
          
          Let me shed my skin,
          Show you what I’m really made of.
          But what’s inside is only a thin,
          Red string held up by ghosts.
          The string that holds it all together,
          The illusion that drives me insane,
          The only thing that matters,
          Is being in control. 
          But I’d give it all away,
          In exchange for my soul.
          
          Bring me back right here,
          To the horror,
          To the fear,
          To where I can disappear,
          To where all have come to follow,
          To where I am a mistake.
          For my own sake,
          Let me go
          To where all that’s left will be
          A girl who’s nothing worth.

One.
          So just promise,
          Please, just promise
          That you’ll always tell the truth.
          Even when it isn’t good.
          Even when the screams are silence,
          Even when we’re drowning in sadness,
          Always tell the truth.
          That’s what you told me,
          What you always made
          Me promise back to you.
          So what am I to do?
          I’m living in a lie
          I tell myself each night.
          I make myself a fool.

And I’m lonely,
          Just a Girl looking at The stars.
          You can’t Find me,
          ‘Cause I don’t want to be found.
          There’s no one around here,
          Just the cold emptiness of my heart.
          And I’m writing,
          A poem in my mind.
          I maybe should write tomorrow,
          For it is getting late.
          But the day may never come,
          So I write on every page.
          And if I write tomorrow,
          It will be today by then.
          And although I may die in sorrow,
          My soul is easily bent.
          A whisper escapes my mouth,
          As I put down my trusted notebook.
          ‘I guess I should have time tomorrow, 
          ‘Cause tomorrow will never end.’

***
          I’m a shadow,
          Glowing, bright.
          I’m a phantom
          In the night.
          I’m a secret
          That was told,
          Just to see
          How it’d unfold.
          I’m a shadow
          Of a Star,
          In the corner
          Of your eye.
          Hiding somewhere
          Out of sight,
          Running off, 
          Into the night.
          I’m a proud mistake,
          An ashamed success.
          You can never make
          Me become any less.
          A dying star.
          One’s shadow
          In the dark. 
          And the world
          Won’t remember me
          Once I’m buried underground.
          Not gonna hold on,
          But from the ledge I will hang.
          Because If I’m going nova,
          I’m going out with a bang.
          ***

Let me go.
          LET ME LIVE.
          Let me fall.
          I’M STILL HERE.
          
          This Is my Final Plea
          And my Final goodbye. 
          I swear that I tried.
          But freedom Is captivity,
          And The choice was mine to make.
          I was The one Who picked my fate.
          
          
          You are dying.
          You’re not ready.
          You’re not crying,
          Your heartbeat’s steady.
          Consider these words
          A goodbye of a coward
          And a choice that had to be made.
          I surrender.
          I surrender my fate.

It will All be over soon.
          There’s only one choice left to make.
          I No longer cry.
          I accept my fate.
          I accept my Death at last.
          
          
          Acceptance Is The last state of grief. 
          But what If after acceptance, 
          There Is something more?
          And The acceptance
          Is truly Just a way to move on?

Let me go.
          I have to go.
          There’s Nothing left for me.
          I hear a voice
          That’s calling me.
          Please, Set me free.
          
          Freedom Is captivity,
          Wings have heavy chains.
          You’ll fall and You’ll fall
          Until nothing remains.

Strasznie przepraszam, że tak długo zajmuje nowy rozdział. Mam małe problemy z komputerem w tej chwili więc wolę nie pogarszać sprawy, postaram się może do końca tygodnia napisać, ale bardzo możliwe, że dopiero po poniedziałku będę w stanie.

...
          S_-aV[E] -_m|E\
          „I loathe you.”
          „I loathe you.”
          „I LOATHE YOU!”
          
          
          
          You are loathed,
          But you may be loved as well.
          Save me,
          And save yourself from hell.
          ...