hi
this is me, @VisionsIXK
Im typing this on my bfs laptop, and I wanna clarify some things before this account gets abandoned.
Mentions of suicide
James Scheuer (Also known as @HoneymelonKXI) committed suicide after his brother passed away from cancer. His brothers death, alongside the NAsk exams that were coming, left him broken. He just couldn't handle it anymore.
I was his roommate, and to be fair, it was horrifying to see him at such state.
Don't read the next part if your already uncomfortable reading this.
He always had a worst case scenario mindset, and when his fears became true, he almost went insane. I saw how his smile faded when he saw the mail. He became more anxious, always told me how "he was the problem" and felt guilty about every single thing. I tried my best to calm him down. I'd hug him more often, listen to him venting and tried to keep all sharp things out of his reach, yet the mental damage became irreversible. One night, when I was trying to sleep, he was whispering to himself about how he would shove a knife into his throat and how he could've been a better friend. The next day I see him carrying alot of Prozac tablets. The worst thing of all were his constant attempts of self harm. He tried to cut open his kneecaps, put his hand in a pan of boiling water and even went so far to try and eat a full load of shotgun ammo just to get intoxicated. I probably got hurt twice trying to avoid him killing himself, yet he just couldn't bear it anymore.
I was lightly sleeping, until I felt a kiss.
The moment I get up and see whats happening, I find the door to the balcony open. I look down from the balcony and see James dead on the ground.
It took the ambulance 34 minutes to arrive, and by the time they got him to the hospital, he was already dead.
I hope you guys understand. This will also probably be the last time you see this account active.
- Nora ( aka @VisionsIXK )
