HopeBiancaDiAngelo16
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Hello yall, don't know how many of you guys will see this but yeah I've come back after a long time, so long that well 'The Artist' is almost at 50K reads, first of all thank you so much for that :)
Also yeah, I'm here since wattpad honestly used to be my safe place and I'd always feel better and well since I've gone into a boarding school from last year, life has been well messed up. Met a guy in october when grades were falling apart, we began to like each other, got to know each other, then well fights happened we separated (mind you we were not dating then) fights to the point his family knew (yeah he was that serious that even his grandparents know of me) but then in December we worked things out between us and began dating, found out that apparently we were family friends and that he had liked me since we were 5, dated 3 months toxic as hell despite both of us having feelings, broke up then well his health was always weak, got worse to the point he had a heart transplant
And well during the time we split in november, went to Europe on a school trip, met another guy who well later I met again in feb, by then my bf and I were confirmed we'd break up the day after our 3 month aniversary in March and we did, meanwhile the other guy and I were honestly just friends but idk when he developed feelings like to the point my bf and I were each other's first love and at the same time I was this guy's first love. Yeah later found out those two are cousins
In the beginning this second guy was more like that he doesn't even mind being friends but he was so vocal about this feelings that after I broke up with my bf, this one was there for me so in a way ig I felt obliged to reciprocate them and this dumb facade that I loved him too, mind you a week after my first ever breakup began and this guy fucking knew that I still loved my ex and that actually I did not love him, he still went on with it.
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My ex and I were still close since well we had also been childhood friends and yesterday he (as in the second one) finally told me to pick one between the two, since it was again becoming 'a race between 2 brothers' and well I picked my ex, not because I wanted to get back with him, I don't like genuinely don't but because I can't lie to myself anymore and now all the second one, his cousin told me in response was well
"Don't give me that 'You were wonderful' or 'I love you' shit please, I beg you. All because someone couldn't get over their ex oh wait their first love. You know though just like he was yours, you were mine, take care"
- and that's the thing in the end I picked his cousin, my ex and right now both are staying together, fuck my ex has aways helped me with my nightmares so I messaged him last night but his net wasn't working and he was asleep so in the morning he apologized and told me that from now on he'll stay up during the time I sleep. Mind you those two are in US right now and there around 11 hours difference but still even before we dated my ex used to stay up the whole time for me until he was sure i'll be fine, yesterday night he wasn't up since he was severely ill and guess what? All I could do after hearing what all the other one had said to me in that monotone yet at the same time teary voice, I was sobbing so I told my ex that I won't talk much today and please tell your brother I'm sorry and well he knows what all is this and well honestly I think this whole thing is finally the point where I'm done with guys now.
