Mari

what am I doing with my life

Can you say something, a truth to show why things are this way 
          Is that too much to ask of you , to contemplate our life 
          Or easier to say, the plan a path that others set out for us 
          Day after day of pain, joy, and everything in between
          Every emotion, feeling that we feel, growing old, there's a pain 
          One that no one bothers to share, not yet old, the pain is there growing 
          Some don't want to feel the pain that is there, so they think
          To end everthing before it grows simular to the flame that grows on a candle, 
          Being blown out just like the the candle, never to be lit again aleast for them.

So the past just came back... 
          Can you tell me why I don't want to look back 
          Nor do I want to see what is up ahead 
          I can't say that I want to be here 
          In this time  I don't know why
          I can tell you what you want 
          Just ask like you did in the past

You say I’m beautiful but that’s for lust 
          You say I’m cute because I won’t let on 
          You say I’m sweet because I stay around 
          You say not to listen to the names I’m called
          You say you’ll make them go away 
          Only if you knew what’s in my mind you’ll understand what beautiful really is. 
          Only if I would be able to show you I really do care about you 
          That you’ve added a name to the list of many with out trying

Last night of holiday :) back to school tomorrow... 

Two years, didn’t think I’d be here. Well Merry Christmas Happy Holidays happy new year etc. hope to see y’all next year. 

write me down as a know it all, a weirdo, freak, broken, worthless, nothing, stupid. just know that I am insecure I care about what people say and think about me but I know that its not true any of those things because I am a weird emo teenage girl who cares too much about things who wants to make you see positive things in life. Just because I say emo its a choice of music and style that I have hoping to change peoples minds about me but hey they  wont change because who will listen to someone who shuts out the world at times to write listen to see what is out there ?

I've been told I redefine a sin. well if I do theres a spot in hell with my name on it

Hey Mari Long time no see I am back i think i come & go a lot haha

September a time to get the used to the cold air 
          up by the fire to roast the last marshmallows
           warm cups of coffee, tea, and hot chocolate 
          football games with large hoodies and beanies 
          staying in or going out and cuddling up to stay warm