Bear ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

My life is such a mess~
          I’m in this house, all alone,
          Full of memories and pain
          
          Why did it have to be you?
          I hurt you bad
          I hurt myself even worse
          I’m sorry, I couldn’t be what you needed me to be
          
          
          13.05.20

@Draco_Drake Heyyy, jensoo is so cute and i love your writing. Just finished twenty four dates actually, update soon  Keep it up my loves xox

I revel in my anonymity. 
          
          It’s easier to reveal one’s feelings and thoughts to complete strangers.
          
          But sometimes I get anxious about the possibility of someone I know, finding out about everything. 
          
          It also doesn’t help that I feel so stressed and tired right now.
          
          24.03.18

I wanted to write down 
          exactly what I felt 
          but somehow
          the paper stayed empty
          and I could not have 
          described it better
          
          ~ I’m so done
          
          13.03.18

I found a night’s sky full of stars
          In your cinematic eyes
          And heard a symphony
          In your laughter.
          
          ~Bending the Universe
          
          I’ve always been smitten with the night’s sky full of stars; I find it so calming and beautiful. I just hope that someday, I’ll find someone who’ll surpass that. I hope that one day, I’ll find you again and show me, what life would be like, with you by my side; loving you endlessly with no doubts.
          
          06.03.18

You turned out to be the best thing i never had.
          
          Emmy, even if you’ll never read this. I want to keep the memories I’ve had with you. All the laughs, drama and love. I need to cut you off of my life for now because I can’t afford to get attached to you. 
          
          You tried to reassure me that it could work but i doubt that it ever will. Tomorrow is a new day but tomorrow is also the time to face the fact that I have to block you out of my tomorrows. 
          
          I’m sorry, i hope you’ll forgive me 
          
          03.03.18

The snow reminds me of how cold I’ve been to everyone but especially to you. It makes me feel regretful thinking about how it’s already a little over four years ago since we last talked.
          
          I miss my cuddles. ( both literally and figuratively) . I just hope that she makes you happy now.
          
          We were never together but I still think of you as the person that made me realise what love was like, for the first time in my life.
          
          PS .. I turn into a hopelessly desperate fool when it comes to you J 
          
          02.03.18

It’s snow day. I casually followed you down the stairs and I asked you why you were wearing casual clothes. 
          You told me why and I was surprised that you kept our little chat going until you had to go back to your friends.
          
          But now I know that what I feel for you isn’t remotely close to love. I was just fooling myself, I’m sorry C
          
          01.03.18

I told you to “fuck off” today, 
          And all you did was pause and say “fuck me” as soon as I walked pass.
          You made me laugh so I just hugged you , hoping my words won’t hurt you as much.
          
          28.02.18

Hello