HoshiWaves
What is the ugliest thing in the world?
War?
Assault?
Human trafficking?
Starvation?
No.
It’s humans.
The very source of every catastrophe—yet the only ones who never realize they are the disease.
I’ve never seen a person truly surrender to their sins.
Neither have I.
The difference is—they fear death.
And I’ve been waiting for it.
I am bound to die one day.
Maybe on an operating table.
Maybe the moment they realize I’m the one exposing their filth to the world.
Maybe when they drag me into the open, press a gun to my forehead, and expect me to beg.
I won’t.
I’ll smirk.
Because nothing would amuse me more than disappointing them.
That was always how I imagined my life ending.
Until everything changed.
Until a man with a siren voice and elegant features walked into my life—
and made me feral, reckless, undone.
He shattered rules I carved into my bones, rules I swore I’d never cross.
Boo Seungkwan.
HoshiWaves
The name tastes like a sin I shouldn’t repeat—yet can’t stop whispering.
The way he smiles when he’s surrounded by friends.
The way he pretends to be strong in public, only to break apart alone in his room.
I shouldn’t know these things.
I shouldn’t know how he drinks his americano, what food he craves when he’s tired, how he styles himself when no one’s watching.
His favorite fruits.
His books.
His music.
I shouldn’t know anything about the heir of a conglomerate—
my next target.
This thing between us—whatever it is—should have ended months ago.
It was supposed to stop.
I keep telling myself that.
And yet, I never do.
His existence fractures my sanity.
The rules forced onto me since birth.
The promises made to my father.
The hyungs who shaped me into what I am—
All of it feels like a cage I suddenly want to escape.
Because he makes me feel things.
Dangerous things.
Like maybe I deserve love too.
The way he looks at me.
The way he shows me parts of himself no one else sees—
unaware that I’ve watched him from the shadows of his own room.
Now I have to choose.
Love—or rules.
Family—or betrayal.
If I choose him…
am I betraying my existence?
The life I built with precision and blood?
Twenty-six years of loyalty, obedience, and companionship?
I am Vernon Hansol.
And I am standing at the edge of everything I was taught to be.
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This is a new Verkwan book idea I recently came up with, and I couldn’t stop myself from sharing it.
I know I still have ongoing projects, but this concept genuinely excites me.
It’s been stuck in my head, and I can’t help but feel that you might enjoy it too.
I really hope you liked the idea—do let me know your thoughts
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