HoneyBobaBabe

I’ve honed the art 
          of painting false pictures of my life
          
          ‘my family is wonderful’
          ‘of course I see my boyfriend’
          ‘I’m busy doing homework’
          ‘I’m really close to my extended family’
          
          nobody wonders
          if the artist hands shook
          if a tear fell from their eyes
          if they had to take breaks 
          from the sheer overwhelming pain 
          that painting may have caused them
          no
          
          people just want it to be pretty
          -I am the canvas

I hate that every time I think of you
          I end up crying
          dreaming for you to hold me
          praying you’re closer than you are
          
          the amount of times I’ve planned
          to escape this house without a trace
          and run to you...
          
          you were always the one constant 
          and in this hurricane of change and pain 
          can you blame me 
          for wanting you so desperately?
          
          why can’t i just see you?
          why can’t i just kiss you?
          why can’t i just be with you?
          
          -why can’t i just have you

and on nights like these
          I wish you were here
          to soothe me back to sleep, Love

I need more
          
          with the father I remember 
          with my Love much too far away
          with the only family who loved me
          to process everything around me
          (Ever changing and tirelessly clawing at my soul)
          
          I need more
          -time

definition is the death of discovery 
          in the same way
          may discovery be the death of definition
          -8.11.19

guess who got Snapchat bitch

slowly the bed consumes you
          as you drift longingly 
          into a hazy slumber
          with promises of rest.
          May it be true to its word
          -goodnight

watching you do it...inspired me to finally commit to it. so after many retakes, testing it with friends, and self-hype...
          
          https://youtu.be/0iK6oQP5tJ8

if you told me a year ago, I was going to try and get a job at chipotle, I would’ve laughed my ass off. And yet here we are. And before you say anything, chipotle has SURPRISINGLY good benefits, like fuck man you bet imma work tho.
          
          Let hope this interview goes well cause mama needs cash

Equation-French Version by Hans Zimmer and Camille