Hotpepperika

Been awhile. I more active on Twitter my @ is DemaryKeely if you want to keep better in contact with me. I’m doing a lot better. Hope alls well, sorry I haven’t been active.

Hotpepperika

I’m going through a burnout and I’m just trying to keep myself in a nice headspace. I’m getting better but my focus is on improving. I might unpublished my arcana story. I’ll do one shots but again my focus is on other places. Sorry you guys but I’m really trying my best!

Hotpepperika

Sorry I haven’t posted, I’ve fallen into a depressive state again, it’s not as bad as last summer.
          
          I’m still doing things but I just want to die. 
          I hate this planet and my love for everything is gone.
          
          I’m in pain mentally and physically all the time, I’m surrounded by negative hurtful family.
          I can’t do anything right.
          
          I know what people want to say “don’t give up or if you kill your self everyone will miss you”
          
          You people don’t get it, I have no reason to keep going. I’ve run out of excuses to keep dragging my feet on this earth.
          
          I’m not gonna do it because I’m a coward and I’m nothing.
          
          I have no reason to go on.
          
          “What about your goals and aspirations?”
          
          They mean nothing, they are just fever dreams I tell myself I’ll get to if I keep working myself like a slave. 
          
          Stop trying to give me reasons, I’ve already thought of them. You all have reasons I don’t. 
          
          I’m self aware, just because I say it doesn’t mean I fully mean it. 

Hotpepperika

Just wanted to make a little apology
          
          I’m sorry I haven’t updated anything I’ve promised, I haven’t been doing to Great. 
          
          Spare me the pity, I do not want it but thank you for caring. 
          
          Don’t know when I’ll be better and I kinda just don’t care. I’m just gonna focus on my art to help me cope. 

memeisthelife

*take your time (sorry it’s late)
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memeisthelife

I hope you get better darling there is no pressure take you are allowed to take time for yourself once in a while bc you deserve it you are always working so freakin hard to make everyone happy. 
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