Sorry I haven’t posted, I’ve fallen into a depressive state again, it’s not as bad as last summer.
I’m still doing things but I just want to die.
I hate this planet and my love for everything is gone.
I’m in pain mentally and physically all the time, I’m surrounded by negative hurtful family.
I can’t do anything right.
I know what people want to say “don’t give up or if you kill your self everyone will miss you”
You people don’t get it, I have no reason to keep going. I’ve run out of excuses to keep dragging my feet on this earth.
I’m not gonna do it because I’m a coward and I’m nothing.
I have no reason to go on.
“What about your goals and aspirations?”
They mean nothing, they are just fever dreams I tell myself I’ll get to if I keep working myself like a slave.
Stop trying to give me reasons, I’ve already thought of them. You all have reasons I don’t.
I’m self aware, just because I say it doesn’t mean I fully mean it.