Windy Hues

Why do I have way too many folders that needs another editing or more writing or just not mentally stable to open and read 

I posted all that I can find on one folder of my notes. Thank you for waiting. 
          Love,
          Windy

Messaging now before wattpad removes PM feature. Wanna remember everyone I spoke with. :)
          
          I remember how introspective and deep you were, in many ways like an artist perceiving the world's beauty in even its smallest features. I'd hate to forget that. 

Hey Wind Nymphs,
          I posted a poem in Ethereal,after almost a year now. Hope y'all enjoy this. 
          Love,
          Windy

Hey there,Wind Nymphs,
          
          I may have decided to come back? I will graduate in a few months and then I am free for an year.
          So what should I do then? Apart from doing Yoga, I will write 
          I will write more,improve and edit. All while working on myself. Can't believe I am gonna be 21 soon. It's been 4 years or so since I have been here. 
          One thing I want to tell yall is to take responsibility.
          Be responsible and hold yourself accountable for your actions. 
          Don't be too selfless or too selfish. 
          Take care of your damn self. No one else is gonna do that for you. 
          You are not a saint so its absolutely okay to make mistakes and as long as you learn from it, It's okay!!! 
          
          I will try to keep in touch with y'all
          I have lots and lots of peoms piled up to be updated
          Soon
          Windy (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

I got wasted like all my potential
          

A star has five ends, a square has four ends, a triangle has three ends, a line has two ends but the circle of our friendship has no end. Send this to your friends (including me if I'm one) and if you get five back, you're a good friend.

I have to apologize to so many people but I don't know if that's easy after being out of contact for so long. I hated myself so much that I projected my insecurities on to others. I tried to be happy by making them a reason for it ,which is not something I should have done. Happiness definitely should come from within. 
          
          And I hope whoever I have mistreated(you know who you are) ,take this as my apology because I lack the  guts to contact you again. 
          I am learning how to get better 
          And Thank you for the beautiful moments I have gotten from you all
          I have my flaws and it's not an excuse about how I treat others. And most time it wasn't intentional. 
          I should be able to understand myself better and that's I should be doing on my own and no one else unless they are professionally assigned to help me get better. 
          So yeah,I am realizing several things as I am growing older and facing life and probelms as it is. 
          And I shouldn't be ashamed to reach out and ask for help if needed. 
          

I don't wanna come back anymore.
          But to talk ,words are not enough. 
          I don't know how to string up words to reply anymore. It's my safe haven once. But I am better off without this place. 
          It's haunted and I don't want to be the Alice who lost her mind down the rabbit hole.I am a lover of calm Springs and mystic Autumns,not scalding Summers and freezing Winters 
          I recognised how horrible the environment I was in,Online and Offline. There are nice people,the ones I heart the most. But letting go of my past helped me a lot. I am not a 17 year old who came to Wattpad to publish her first story(still unfinished) anymore.I met a lot of people, watched them leave as well, Thought I was in love, it was more of an obsession,addiction. BUT Love is neither possession nor a scavenger hunt. I wasn't wrong when I thought I was in love...but I wasn't right either.I was holding onto strings loosely held at the other end. Before I felt robbed of who I am. Been forced to get better,forced not to get better.It was so suffocating. I felt like if I breathe wrong everything will come crashing down. But it did,but I realised it was the chains that broke. I am not a candle nor a moth who's been drawn to the flame. I am not bleeding from the thorns anymore. I am something else.I feel humane,I feel Windy. 
          I am actually getting better , without invalidations,without looking for rights and wrongs,without looking for light or darkness,without being forced to "heal" or to be "fixed" 
          Maybe this is my goodbye,maybe I will get back to this place which was once my safe haven.Maybe I will go on and post at the crack of dawn or I will keep this desert,where once flowers bloomed, intact. But now I know that I never forgot to love who I am. I might hate myself but there's only a thin line between love and hate but now I can finally see the lines clearly.Winds been blown,dust is gone,I finally found home in my words. 
          I love you,My Wind Nymphs. Thank you so much. 
          
          
          

Anyone else read old chats with your crushes/exs and be like ewwwww Or is it just me? 
          Like I am feeling so cringey that I used to talk like that. Well thank goodness not anymore! 
          
          And yeah I am not back from my break, was just checking  for some updates for the books I love. 
           My Wind Nymphs, I hope y'all are surviving everyday with a good amount of hope. Even if you aren't ,it's okay. Don't invalidate you or what you are feeling