Beautaeful

I’m feeling dizzy all of a sudden while I was just lying on my bed. This isn’t the first time. What’s happening to me 

When you post your picture with a boy, exes be asking who dat, and saying oh good for you bla bla  please stop ur jealous ass from destroying my happiness. Our times are over and we’re nothing more than just acquaintances 

Something’s definitely wrong. I love my friends and my family very much but when anything bad happens to them like they get hurt or something, I can’t bring myself to care enough. I don’t really care and I hate this. I love them but I don’t care. I keep saying that everything will be fine. It’s because I don’t care. Shit something is wrong with me. 

Thanks for adding my book to your reading list dear hope you enjoy reading it❤️❤️

Thanks a lot for adding my story to your list! I hope you enjoy it!

Shit. This is the second time this person asking to get into a serious relationship with me. It’s hard for me to turn people down but I can’t have any relationship except friendship. That’s all. I’m not ready for the commitment. I had a relationship before and it’s a bad relationship. It was an unhealthy relationship. It made me scared for life.

It all started when I was in elementary school. I was in a speech competition and in the middle of my speech, I forgot my lines and I panicked because most of the students laughed at me. I was a confident little girl before the competition and it all crumbled when the bullies didn’t take a moment to pick on me. They hated me cause I was the top student in my school and they won’t miss the chance to bully me

It’s worse when your own family and close friends don’t show support to you to overcome your fear. When I told them that, they just tell me to get over it and move on with life

I have a HUGE stage fright like I got panic attacks everytime but I tried so hard not to show it on the stage you have no idea how awful that is. My actions may seem a little weird from the audiences’ point of view but that’s the most I can do. I feel like I can collapse anytime but I don’t want to show how weak I am to other people.

‪A big part of me still want to know why she did that. Was she being threatened ? Did she lost her thoughts ? Did she lost her faith ? Just why‬