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So I had another argument with my mother today. I almost got physical with her. I could see myself grabbing her hair and pushed her face into the table's sharp wooden corner. And I wouldn't have given a shit doing it. But my sister was there I can't do that to her. She deserves a better life.
Verbal abuse is not uncommon, there have been times when my mother has hurt me physically as well as mentally but I have never hurt her back physically. Although I do say many things back to her in my uncontrollable rage. I just lose control. Fly off the handle and if my mother had stopped me from going to get my stuff I would have done who knows what.
I am now at my father's house who has only gotten the story from me but mostly my little sister. She defended me and stood by my side. My father is now at my mother's house. But honestly I just want to protect my little sister... She never deserved any of this.