Okay so, I have been thinking about this for a long time and still don't know if I'm doing the right thing. I'm planning on taking down all of my books. Don't get me wrong, I still love k-pop and I will love it till the day I die. I still love writing, and even though I haven't been posting, I was writing books in my Google Docs.
Why I started thinking about taking down the books? Well, first of all, it is school. Being stuck in a loop of studying and writing tests and exams for 10 months takes all of the time, and if I have free time, I choose to spend it with my family, friends, or watching movies/dramas. I also started reading A LOT of books. I have never been a reader, but since I started writing here, I got into reading, and I no longer have time to write, or I don't have the inspiration.
Another reason why I'm considering on taking down the books is, in my mind, very simple. I have been thinking, 'how would I feel if I knew that people wrote books about me?' And even though it may be nothing big, and I don't write explicit content, I see how others do, and it makes me sick. And I see the comments which sometimes I can tell are from 12-years-olds (and I'm not saying it's bad to read fan-fics at that age, just the comments sometimes are... not something a 12-years-olds should write) Also, there's always one thought in my head that is just eating me from inside constantly: what if in the future I decide to do something and then this comes out (this acc) and idk ruins everything. I know it sounds stupid, when I wrote it down it sounds stupid to me, but it just keeps living in my head.
I still don't know if I want to and if I will for sure take the books down. Maybe I will just change the Idol's name and Y/n to another name. It just makes me sad to take the books down, which's why I'm writing this first. I have tried writing books under other names, but it didn't work for me.
You can write your thoughts on this one, I always read everything you guys write.
