Hey, I'm Melody. You know, in every writer's work they leave bits of themselves in it. So, sorry about that guy that left because of your faith, sorry about the temptations you have been feeling. God is still with you and I admire your faith. You strengthen mine as well. I might be wrong about all what I'm assuming about your personal life.
I'm here if you want to talk anyway.
Stick with Jesus yeah? Don't let that temptation win.