I couldn't even relate to what you might be going through, so I don't know how else to comfort you but send you my regards. I hope your doing well because things are going to get way better, and the next thing you know your surrounded by those who care, because I do. You might not believe it but you're surrounded by people who are going to be here for you,Including me.
Remember to take good care of yourself and stay safe the internet is a dangerous place :)
-Love
A random stranger online