How can I wake up from this nightmare in which I'm not even asleep?


I may look happy. 
But honestly dear.  
The only way I'll really smile. 
Is if you cut me ear to ear. 


I find it kind of funny. 
I find it kind of sad. 
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. 


She captures her reflection then throws the mirror to the floor. 
Her image is distorted screaming 
"Is it worth it anymore?"


To be hurt. 
To feel lost. 
To be left out in the dark. 
To be kicked when your down. 
To feel as if you've been pushed around. 
To be on the edge of breaking down. 
And no ones there to save you. 
No you don't know what it's like. 
Welcome to my life. 


Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finally say "I'm used to it."


Sick of crying. 
Tired of trying. 
I'm smiling but inside I'm dying. 


Dear pillow,

         Sorry for all the tears...


I hate the ending myself, but it started with an alright scene. 


You could push me off a cliff and I would hit the ground apologizing for standing to close to the edge. 


If you are living your life without giving an "f". 
You are only living a "li_e." 


Today was the absolute worst day ever
And don't try to convince me that
There's something good in every day
Because, when you take a closer look,
This world is a pretty evil place. 
Even if
Some goodness does shine through once in a while
Satisfaction and happiness don't last. 
And it's not true that
It's all in the mind and the heart
Because 
True happiness can be obtained
Only if ones surroundings are good
It's not true that good exists 
I'm sure you can agree that
The reality
Creates
My attitude
It's all beyond my control
And you'll never in a million years hear me say that
Today was a good day. 

*if you want something happy read this last one from bottom to top*