Mimi :3 🩷

Sorry to bother you, but I think you like Demon Slayer too. This is a fanfiction I wrote about Demon Slayer. You can share it with others when you have time... Thank you! https://www.wattpad.com/story/405977238?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=sms&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=YuetongYuetong

Idk why, but I've lost all my motivation....
          
          I can't even make the bed when I get up, I have an unfinished painting I started months ago.... There's two laundry piles waiting to be put away in my room....
          I need to practice violin and pass my exam by the summer, yet I've only gotten three quarters of my first piece done and two to four scales done out of an entire booklet, and 4 pieces. 
          
          I can't bring myself to play, I can't bring myself to write, I can't help but cry and doom scroll and "listen" to my dad telling me I'm not doing anything with my life. 
          
          I'm worried my depression might be coming back, and it isn't even because of your shitty MY life is. I'm grateful, I have family, friends, school, clothes, food, a roof over my head, a bed to sleep in. 
          
          But I can't help but cry, for the innocent people that were slaughtered and tortured to death. 
          
          I can't take it anymore...I can't even bring myself to make coffee, or eat. My last proper meal? Gosh, I don't know? 
          
          ....

Really quick Stuart update! 
          
          After I gave the divorce form I wrote with the fancy writing to my friend in Stuart's group...
          
          She went to him during drama today and showed it to him, and said I wrote it, and then she said that Stuart looked over to me and smiled at me???!!!
          
          I was busy with my own group and stuff so I didn't notice it. 
          
          BUT STUART'S BEEN SMILING AT ME A LOT MORE THAN LAST YEAR WTF? I THINK LAST YEAR HE'S ONLY SMILED AT ME TWICE? 
          
          NOW, I'VE LOST COUNT???

Sooooo ummmm,
          
          WHY IS HEESUNG LEAVING?! 
          
          WHEN MY FRIEND TOLD ME, I SCREAMED? THEN MY STAY FRIEND CAME FROM BEHIND ME AND SAID 
          "I heard "Heesung" I'm going to have you to stop because I don't want to cry" or something like that, it was really funny.
          
          BUT HEESUNG!! HE WAS MY FIRST BIAS BRO....
          
          AND THAT ONE YOUTUBER WITH THE RED HAIR WHO'S LIKE HEESUNG BIASED ALL THE WAY, I THINK HER NAME WAS COCO???? BRO HER LATEST VIDEO ALMOST MADE ME CRYYYY
          
          
          Speaking seriously though, I love ENHYPHEN, I hope they can stay in touch, I hope they aren't in bad terms, I Hope Heesung's solo career sky rockets, I hope none of the two sides gets hate, and yeah, I wish the best to both.
          
          ENHYPHEN helped me with their music, and their song "fatal trouble" was my most listened to on Spotify wrapped, with I think over 99 listens to it??? Keep in mind that's only on Spotify and not YouTube music.

STUART UPDATE! 
          
          HE ASKED ME OUT!
          
          
          
          
          
          Jkjk he didn't actually....sadly...
          
          But I interacted with him! In drama class, we have a prop stretcher on wheels. And Stuart was using it. So I came up to him and asked "Can I ask a question about that? Do you think it props up? *Using arms as demonstration* You know?"
          And he went "I don't know, let's try!" He just seemed in a happy mood today which made me happy as well. And we spent like a solid three minutes trying to figure it out together. 
          I remember one of the kids in his group, We'll call him "L" was lifting up the matress, so I thought he got it, and I said "Oh, you got it!" 
          And he said  "Nooo I'm just doing that" He was actually lifting it with his hands so  we all started laughing and BRO STUART'S CHUCKLE OMG I WANT TO MAKE HIM LAUGH LIKE THAT EVERYDAY.
          Anyways after working on it and getting it with the help of Kevin as well Stuart groand and said "Finally, now I can lay down properly!" And he layed down on it, then L came over and pulled it back down WHILE Stuart was laying down, so he jerked kinda and L said "No, it needs to be down since your dead" 
          And I chuckled saying "Aww noo, you're dead again?" Obviously he knew what I was talking about, because yesterday, I was braiding my friend's hair, and she was in his group (She's divorcing him, and I got to write the divore papers, she likes my font. So I made sure to write his name EXTRA fancy!) And when I heard that he dies, I looked at him smiling and went "You die in literally every show, no?" 
          And he chuckled then said "Yeah." And then he was looking back and forth to me and Kevin saying "The old grandpa? Dead!" (He was in my group last year when that happened.) "Lord Farquaad? Dead! Now? Dead!" It was really funny, and I think these two past days were just really good for the both of us seperatly since we were both in happy moods!
          
          And yeah! ( I really do hope he asks me out eventually)

R u still alive?? Cause I am. 

Today during drama, he sneezed twice, both times I said bless you, either he didn't hear me, which I wouldn't be surprised because bro's deaf af, or he ignored me. Sooooo yeah. 
          
          Please end my suffering now, I want to cry. 
          
          ALSO! today, @BridgetStrayKids and I were planning something for drama, and I hid in a prop locker, and she told me "hold on, I'll grab the rest of the group, stay in there, and when I Bang on the locker, pop your head out" 
          And so I did exactly as she said, and when I popped my head out, I didn't expect to see Stuart in my face as well with a prop stretcher, and he was on top, and I was crouched down, and I basically crawled out of the locker very awkwardly and he was staring at me the entire time. I was embarrassed so I told him, we'd put the stretcher away so he could leave. 
          
          Please help me
          I can't do this any longer. . .

Sooooo umm
          
          Who's Stuart and do I know him?? 
          
          
          
          
          I think I screwed up . . . 
          
          Please help...

*Goes onto Google and starts to type delusional shit after tossing and turning in bed for the past 6-7 hours replaying all the week's events and manifesting my future* 
          
          *Looks over at the time* 
          
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          | 2:56 AM |
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          Mimi: "What to say when trying to start a conversation with Stuart?" 
          
          Google: "Be yourself! *Insert nerdy with finger pointing up emojis* 
          
          Mimi: "What if myself would just blurt out random shit accidently because of anxiety and nerves and make him run away?" 
          
          Google: "In that case, yourself should go into your garage, grab that shovel on the left wall three hooks to the right, find the nearest forest, dig 6feet down, then jump in and drown, because you're screwed! *Insert teeth smile emoji*"
          
          Mimi: "Great! Nearest bridge it is!
          
          
          
          . . .
          
          
          I'm never gonna be able to talk to him outside of drama, am I?" 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I WANNA TALK TO THE DAMN GUY BUT HAVE NO CLUE WHAT TO SAYY.
          
          
          UGHHHHHHH
          
          
          HELP ME MY LOVES, IM SPIRALING!! 

I'm not sure if I've stated this before or not, however, my friend and I would usually sing Billie Jean by Michael Jackson together a lot and we would sing it in front of Stuart sometimes because she had a class with him and today during drama Stuart and his friend, Kevin were up in the booth so they got to control the sound so they started playing like songs. I was on that one leather couch. I was cuddling with my friends and sleeping cuz I was really tired. Originally Stuart played California girls for the entire theater and everyone was singing and stuff but I didn't bother. I was just so tired then after he played Billie Jean and I was really happy and I jumped up from my cuddling spot and I was like singing with my friends and everything and like we kept screaming Thank you to the booth. I was like oh my God he paid attention and then later he played a song called I was made for loving you by kiss or something like that. So I don't know. Maybe it's just my delusional side but I took that as a sign. Anyway my friend @BridgetStrayKids gave me a few 3D printed rubber ducklings like really mini ones and we went up to the booth together to Stuart and Kevin and I went " hey do you guys want ducklings for playing such good songs?" & Stuart said "sure" and I opened my palm and he took one in his hand touched mine oh my God. So now Stuart and I have something matching. I gave him a little gift. 
          Later when they came back downstairs he was like dancing and stuff and I smiled at him and he smiled back. Oh my God.