Mmmh

Happy birthday Torkmy! Wish you all the best hon! I hope you are still here as I couldn't find your acc. Hope all is good 

Got rid of every memory with you in the middle of June. You never existed mkay bye 

After  all the deaths, especially suicides around me I feel numb towards the feeling of "death is always there". Sure let it be around me, let it hang around me. At this point I am the one seeking death the moment I get the opportunity, I will beat the death before getting it to me. I will take myself there with my own hands, I just need time. I am only scared to hurt this one person, my mum and thats it. I pray for her to live long as moment she leaves me I am also waving goodbye.

BABY I'M MISSING THE FUCK OUT OF YOU <33

I need NEED Usui Tamaki in my life 

Suddenly missing a person who isn't in your life anymore and wishing they could walk you through your troubles is different type of pain

I deleted many but I kept few memories with you. They are still there, hidden away in my gallery. So accessible. Yet I'm scared to even look at them. It's been over 5 months. Please. Leave me alone. Please. 

Sometimes I just wanna be hugged to sleep 

I got rid of most of the things and pictures that reminded me of you and our time together. I'm getting stronger, I'm getting over it. I barely remember most of the memories and I gotta thank my goldfish memory for that. I can get rid of everything but why can't it forget these music which you showed me once? 

Why do memories hurt so much ?