I don't really know how to express myself. like at All. So instead I'll just put something with my feelings poured into it. "because, you'll never love me back... and knowing that you can never love me back.. hurts even more" 

"Do you know what it's like to be in love with someone who can never love you back?" 

"The pain, the feeling of longing you can never have.." 

"The feeling when you sleep every night, staring thinking about that person.. That person who you know doesn't love you back"

NEXT ONE
Thee shall drop a rose each night, 
Wondering if their life shall end soon
Sickness spreads with that singular rose
As they drop dead.. 
They no longer have to wonder.

NEXT
I want feel someone's warmth half the time,the feeling of someone next to me.I want to feel loved, and I want to love someone.but I'm incapable of feeling that.I'm incapable of wanting and thriving for that. I'm incapable of socializing to find that love. I'm incapable of hugging. And i'm incapable of smiling or showing affection. Even if I could what if it's not enough? What if I shall wander away from you like others have done me? Then what shall you and I do with our lives? In the end each of us shall wander like we have done others. Sleeping without warmth. Wanting to feel loved. In the end it's all gone. All that I've worked for. All the things we done together will wither away with all of the feelings. All of the guilt. All of the pain will be nothing. We shall move on like we've done all of the other times. 

LAST ONE! 
I wish skeletons would disappear so when I am buried it would be as if I never existed to begin with. I wish that one day I can truly love so that I won't have to leave you, but I cannot for I can never recover from the abuse I've been through.But please my love remember that you are not the one who caused this, but you can fix it.