Just a random reader

It's still stuck in my head when Alex suddenly asked
          "(Name ko), are you straight?"
          
          Nabigla ako pero I said not exactly namn (pan and lithromantic)
          Then, at one point, sabi nia (not the exact pero I think these were it eh)
          "If lalake ka, you would be my type pero kasi I'm straight eh"
          
          And I'm just sitting there like..
          
          HUH??
          
          I was baffled asf by that
          I remained sitting there in the small circle sa roof/terrace ni Gabo while she was drunk and leaning onto me kasi dizzy sia;-;
          
          .
          
          That happened yesterday (and a LOT of emotional rollercoasters), but yeah;-; that's still in my head
          
          .
          
          Also- bec of their drinking session back on Wednesday and yesterday (Friday), I'm broke now
          Nag alaga din, which I don't mind, ang interesting to see their drunken state ngl‍♀️
          Then, a LOT of crying. Pinigil ko sarili ko when Rayne told me about overhearing Holly and I's talk sa CR. Like SO bad.
          NQHXIRKFHWIZAKQI EWAN KO NA PUTA

This shit ain't even funny no more bro.
          
          Dba PR1 proposal defense kanina? Tangina. I got emotional and kinaban. ESPECIALLY once Rayne noticed it during the questionings and rubbed my back. Pag labas namin, I started tearing up like??
          Maybe kasi I'm not used being comforted?? Ewan ko na. Basta I cried after the fuckasss defense na yan
          [
          Reason na nga rin na kinaban ako dyring presentation is how shit I did. I'm more of a prepared presentor, kaso d kami nag practice, so impromptu kami. Nyeta. Nag basa lng ako dun sa PPT. And when questioning na, ma'am asked me the difficult questions that even Rayne and Brent couldn't answer. And pag alam ko sagot, naunahan ako. Isa din sa questions for me was ano ung gap namin. I started off about sa lack of literature on sen high students and ma'am cut me off then moments later si Rayne sumagot and she let him finish??? Like. BRO.
          ]
          

Pisteng yawa;-;
          
          (Jwkckrid tumahimik na me._. D na sana sumama)
          
          2nd time na ito broooo;_;

I'm in my arc where I'm shamefully falling for buff men.
          
          BRO WTFFF I BLAME TOGAME JO FROM WIND BREAKER.
          I STARTED A AO3 FF WITH THE SAME AUTHOR AS THE SUO FF. AND I ENDED UP GOING THROUGH THEIR ACC AND FOUND A JJK FF (smut ofc)
          
          .
          
          I DON'T EVEN WATCH JJK. I'M OFFENDING MYSELF FOR THAT--reading something related to a show I haven't watched yet, I mean
          My view on the characters is already changing when I don't even know how they actually are written in the show. All cuz of how they're written in this smut ff
          And the thing is.. I'M GENUINELY BLUSHING AND GUSHING FOR THEM?! THE PERSON WHO I WAS BEFORE WOULD ABSOLUTELY BARF.
          
          IM STOPPING TO BLUSH AT THESE AND I'M ONLY AT TOJI'S PART. I'M AT THE PART WHERE THE READER JUST SIGNED THE 10 YEAR CONTRACT. (ima update how it went when I finish his part. Sidenote, Geto's was lowkey wholesome in the end.. but still humiliating that I got second-hand embarrassment for the reader.)
          
          I blame the author.
          I blame how creative they are for writing these so SO creative, bro. I hate and love the author sm.
          
          ...
          Anyway-
          "The Doll House" by candycandyoo on Ao3 <333
          And the Suo ff being "My Sweet Pet (Suo and Sakura Edition)

The urge to become an author on either wattpad or ao3 is back and so I was reading diff kinds of writing styles and moreee
          
          QNXUEKDJ I DON'T USUALLY READ SMUT NOW, BUT WTF THIS SPECIFIC ONE ON AO3 BRUVV
          I THOUGHT CRINGE UN AND WHATNOT KASI MAY PA KITTEN KITTEN SIA EME, PERO ANG SURPRISINGLY GOOD???
          Last line of one of the characters:
          
          "I love you too, kitten. Now," he says, unbuttoning his pants, "since your face looks so lovely with painted c*m, let me add my own color."
          
          LIKE HUHHHHH WHAT.

Cramps and cravings got so bad that I went out and got pizza (what I was craving the entire day and some wings from Angels Pizza)

Omfg I should've brought an umbrella like my instincts told me to pero full na kasi bag ko;-; (dala ko laptop)
          
          I'm at but first cafè and it's rainin. On and off. Pero whenever the rain stopped, nag chill pa ako dito, thinking na oks lng siguro
          
          I've been here since like 10am
          Betch it's 4:34pm
          
          ._.
          
          Natatae pa namn ako

Ain't no fuckin way some dude is checkin me out rn
          
          So. SM Rosales ako, right?
          I finally found mama and mang inasal. Know that may glass window/wall thingy. Basta un.
          
          Welp-
          
          I noticed some dude looking at me, but I shrugged it off kasi tabi ko ung entrance (mag tapat din kami ng table)
          
          Kuya |glass| me |       exit
          
          I noticed him scootch closer sa glass, but again shrugged it off kasi may kasama sia.
          
          Until he brought his cam out.
          
          But he took a selfie kasama katabi nia._.
          
          .
          Then he kept glancing at me and even told his friend sa tapat nia, which gives a better view sa face ko;-; so nag eye contact ako sa kaibigan nia.
          
          Eventually mama came back from the bathroom, so I stood up to get her groceries and decided to look at the guy
          .
          Puta.
          I absolutely LOATHE his behavior but he's like those street guy cute.
          
          AND MADE EYE CONTACT. Ew. Ew. Ew.
          
          And then I left.
          
          ._.

Late nanaman sa pagsamba
          Nakatambay annaman sa cr
          
          Nagising ako ng mga 7 dba- tangina. Nag janitor ai pa kasi. Tuloy, bumangon ng 9:40 QKJSIEIJDHF
          I left around 9:51 and I arrived 10:10/11
          So ayun.
          Tambay nanaman sa cr until natapos cla and hope na d mahuhuli

Putangina.
          It's not that deep bro
          I BARELY KNOW YOU.
          I LEGIT HAVE NEVER SPOKEN TO YOU IRL.
          I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF YOU KNOW HOW TO PRONOUNCE MY NAME RIGHT TF???
          
          STAWP. NAHIMIK KA NA JAN SA PARINIG MO SA NOTES
          "
          19hrs ago
          ✨️
          Umaasa (Calein)
          "
          
          ‍♀️
          Bruv.