I don't know? I got so happy of my achievement then in the back of my mind there's a voice that says "don't be a fool, there's always someone better than you." Erhm... Like... Ok? Now I don't like my achievement, cuz it's such a tiny thing
"Do you know what's worth fighting for? When it's not worth dying for? Does it take your breath away? And you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out the pride? And you look for a place to hide. Did someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins.
Ok like... First of all? Why would you even do that? To your own daughter? I mean... Girl? Are you even a mother at this point? Seriously. Bruv! You a fuckin' addict or something? Banging my head against the top shelf of a cabinet? Uh... Ok! Let me go commit double-suicide with Dazai then!