𝑆𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑘𝑙𝑒✨

I need you so bad right now it's honestly depressing :(( 

Another thing I miss about you baby is you scolding me for not taking care of myself. I miss talking about our plans to meet each other one day. I miss teasing you. I miss you letting me win in our 'debates' just because you loved me that much that you would let me. I miss talking about what we would've done together if we ever linked up. You promised to show me so many places and experiences baby.Remember when we spoke about getting each others names tattooed on each other? Maybe I'll do that soon.. got one already so.. bound to add more but.. you have to be first. 
          
          You know what I miss the most out of everything? I miss just loving you princessa

You know one thing I am grateful that I am terrible at is.. deleting emails. Why? Because I can still read some of your old messages from wattpad through them. Why is most of them just love notes? When did we even first say I love you? No clue, it's funny because baby we were saying stuff like 'I love you so much and I'll keep repeating that until you wake up knowing I love you with every fibre in me❤️' after knowing each other for one year and four months. It makes me smile nonetheless. You're so sweet baby honestly <33 
          
          

I keep reading our old messages and I regret ever deleting my old Whatsapp because I miss your voice messages and reading your messages on there. I miss hearing your laugh. I regret ever being shy to talk on the phone in the first place because I never got to talk to you for long.. trust me if I knew I wouldn't speak to you for years I would've stayed on the phone with you for hours.. the longest ever phone call we ever had was an hour and a half.
          
          I'm in a bad headspace and you're not here, like you promised you would always would be. But its okay baby, I've gotten a bit stronger since the last time we've spoken. I've grown a bit more resilient and I feel I can handle things a bit better. But your support and unwavering love and affection is what first built that resilience and I can't ever replicate that feeling.. that feeling of your love. 
          
          We're such weirdos when we're together princessa, I miss being weird with you my love :((
          

Wattpad is stupid for getting rid of messages because now I can't go over our old conversations that we had.. I look through messenger and cry when I see you're not there. We're so dumb we we talk together, you're so cheesy and we have some horrible jokes. I miss you, I miss you so much

You're so rude. Five years later and I still worry about you constantly. I don't know what happened but I swear if I ever see you in person it's on sight because how the he do you just leave me like this? Five years princessa five years.. I don't know I just miss you. I miss my friend. I'm an idiot because I still love you. I'm an even bigger idiot because you'll never see this but I just hope you're okay I hope you're safe.. I hope you're happy my love. I hope you have happiness because you deserve every bit of it 

Thank you for adding my book to your reading list ❤️

Can you come back and talk to me cause I'm feeling like shit tbh 

I LOVE YOU MORE. END. OF. DISCUSSION ❤

Damn it's been forever and I'm such a slacker but it's hella late over here. But just in case you didn't know but I love you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so much, Princessa I your Boo Bear am so blessed to have you in my life. Even with the shit you deal with cause of me  you still stand strong by my side. I'm grateful and I feel honoured to be able to call you my best friend, and hell even make some pretty amazing moments. Man 1 year and 5 months strong  Princessa, and I ain't bout to let go of your crazy ass, we've been through thick and thin together baby, though we never really fought cause that's just how whipped we are for each other haha and cause we never like to piss each other off thank you for giving me those chances just to rant and spill my heart out to you when I was pissed or upset, whoever reads this just know this wonderful girl right here is so gorgeous and selfless, she has an Amazing personality to which I fell in love with, and can make you smile just by talking to her, she has such a wonderful soul and is so strong willed. She's a fighter. Thank you Ventura my love for fighting for me. Thank you for trusting me. Thank you for loving me as I am. And thank you for being true. You deserve all the happiness and joy the world brings you. Fuck nah you deserve the whole universe, ugh you deserve it all really. But baby always know you're amazing and that I always got you
          ~Love Always Boo Bear
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